I’m sorry…I’m sorry that some days, I just feel like renting an old, sad, classic movie and watched it alone at home. I know, I already watched it over a million times and I knew that storyline whereby the girl cried, with all the stuff he had left behind, while asking why he is not coming back tonight.
And I know, I know it’s just a movie. I’m sorry, but I just like to get into the mood, to let my heart squeeze a little bit, to feel or even cry a little. All because life moves so fast, everyone moves too fast, but I’m not over it yet. I’m not ready to move on…I’m sorry.

Corrinne May knows best


Not long ago (also not really recently), I asked my friends and the people around me this question: “How is it possible for one to get natural HIGH?” Unfortunately, I didn’t manage to get a satisfying answer from anyone, until I caught this song on the radio. “Something about you” by Corrinne May. I’m enlightened but, as you know, one question leads to another, so Where are you?... ( If you get what I meant)

默契 = Ecstasy

儿时就玩在一起，
渐渐了解彼此的个性。
我知道你不说的秘密，
你清楚我不高兴会到哪里。

我感冒，你也在流鼻涕，
甚至懂我几时会放屁。
喜欢的音乐第一个告诉你，
只因为我知道你也爱听。

时间没有拉远我们的距离，
因为说好永远在一起。
争吵就帮彼此擦干泪滴。
哭后，不好的都忘记。

朋友，默契是你给我的Ecstasy。
喜欢的地方，我们一起去。
我不想说的，你都会不提。
讨厌的东西，还好你也不会把它理。

爱人不如一位好知己，
我的知己就是你。

PS: 默契 - 1. 交往;密切關係, 2. 和諧一致

Ecstasy - produces intensely pleasurable effects – including an enhanced sense of self- confidence and energy. Effects include feelings of peacefulness, acceptance and empathy.

A lot...


A lot of good habits too hard to keep
A lot of good friends too hard to meet
A lot of good deeds too hard to commit
A lot of good stories too hard to believe

A lot of good games too hard to win
A lot of good nights too hard to sleep
A lot of good songs too hard to sing
A lot of good dreams too hard to live

A lot of good results too hard to beat
A lot of good shoes too hard to fit
A lot of good veges too hard to eat
A lot of good choices too hard to pick

爱的巧克力...


Baby 是你，我的 Honey
让我心情，永远开心。
只要能和你在一起，
做什么，我都答应。

Baby 是你，不要怀疑。
没有别人，你是唯一。
你要的每一样东西，
做什么，我都答应。

你说的每一句话我都爱听，
你每一个笑容我都珍惜。
台风，下雨不敌你一颗泪滴。
永远记得你爱吃的巧克力。

Family Potrait

Was at my cousin (chuyan)'s place when my mom decided to take a few photos of ourselves... Pics really do mean a thousand words (said or unsaid) when it comes to family. Here we are...

Mom n Chuyan

Mom and I

Chuyan and I

Chuyan and I making faces

You know honeymoon is over when...

your new school timetable is up!!! kindof sad but I must say I did enjoy my 3 months break, even for the fact that I have to go back to school 3 times a week, in the first month, for my psychology classes. Compared to last year, I am having alittle less anticipation now maybe because I'm not "new bird" anymore. But still, there are stuff to get used to, for example, prepare for lectures and quizs, doing tutorials and REALLY STUDY for a BETTER GPA. Yah, tell me about it...

My face on edveNTUre?!?


One of my China friends just spotted my face on edveNTUre website and asked me to log in to see for myself. I am not 100% sure if it’s me, due to the size of the pic but I do see some similarities there. But you know what, I trust my China friends since they are all so smart and cautious and take every small single detail so ever carefully. Here is the pic and I will let you be the judge.

My first attempt at cooking: Fried Rice


After watching “大小爱吃”, I am somehow convinced/tricked into believing that cooking isn’t really a difficult task. So I decide to cook my own lunch today but the only ingredients I can found in my fringe are some cabbage, lean meat and leftover rice. And that decides my dish to be …Fried Rice.

It’s really my first try in cooking and I didn’t really think of posting an entry about it. So I didn’t take the pics of the prepared ingredients which I washed and sliced and fried. However, after tasting it, I decided to write about my successful attempt and took a pic of the done dish. I’m so proud of myself, so much so that more attempts will be coming up (I hope). Hahaha…



The end result: (Believe it or not?) A delicious lunch and a satisfied customer

Heroes Parody...


It's supposed to be a good show and then you have this...



And of course if someone were to do it, no one does it better than Madtv. It's a lazy saturday afternoon but it's good to, at least, exercise our cheek muscles.

Talking about days of our lives…



With all the army things going on right now (who says anything about LHY? Who? Who?) and the 9pm drama which is showing on channel 8 now, remind me of my army days. So this morning, I went to flip the pages of my journal I wrote in camp and came across the entry I now still find it quite funny when I rethink of it. Here it goes…

060105 (Thurs)

-Don’t be lazy!!! Must always wake up for breakfast…It’s the right thing to do, if not (before), CSM gives EXTRAS…
-B4 SOC, or other exercise, do equipment check! It’s not the men’s fault to forget stuff, it’s commanders’ fault not doing their duties to ensure.
-Commanders Vs High creditable Men
-Don’t wait 4 things to happen. Initiative…
-Don’t always treat men like friends. Know what’s the right time.
-Sispec’s Specialist Creed. Work according to that.
“I am the Specialist of Singapore Army,
With pride I lead,
I excel in my specialist field,
I ensure the discipline of my soldier and readiness of their equipment,
I will overcome adversity with my fighting spirit,
I will defend Singapore with my life.”
-Commanders do your jobs. Punish the men if necessary. Don’t wait for PS or PC to punish. If not, then you are not doing your job.

End

Thinking back, I guessed we are all trying to learn to do the right things. Failure is not a bad thing if it made us a better person. The funny thing is, most of the words in that entry came from an officer whom I slowly lost respect to as time went by. Still I wish him all the best and ORD is still the best thing which has happened to me so far.

Instant Noodles...


Me: Er…do u know the correct way of cooking instant noodles?

Grandma: What’s wrong?

Me: Just that it’s healthier to change the boiling water after the noodles is cooked.

Grandma: Why?

Me: To remove the wax.

Grandma: Ghosts also eat candles, it’s time to get used to wax.

What makes you so sure that you will wake up from your sleep?


So my friends and I was chatting the other day.

Lazy bum (LB): “Woh, weijie, you still on holiday right? So good, can stay up late and sleep like nobody’s business. How I wish I can sleep away my Monday blues and never need to wake up for work.”

Me: “What makes you so sure you will wake up from your sleep?”

LB (pause for awhile): “Come on lah, my 10 alarm clocks are not toys I put in my room for fun. And setting them every night before I sleep is not a hobby I enjoy. They, of course, have to wake me up.”

Opps...I guessed she was pissed maybe because she was looking for some comfort and not another question from me.

Another lazy bum (ALB): “Besides, we still have our secret weapon, which is, our mom. She will never let us have the chance of skipping our ‘delicious’ breakfast prepared by her.”

Me: “But that’s all provided that you are able to wake up right? What if you really sleep and never wake up? How your brain tells your eyes to open and body to start engine again?”

Marcus AKA The 4D guy: “For me, it’s the calling. For example, I had this dream last night. It’s about 4 chickens laying 5 eggs. 4-7-5-0… Woh, I have to go buy this number. Thanks for remaining me buddy.” And off he went.

Me: “…”

LB: “LoL, I got to go too. Lunch hour is over. Talk to you later. Bye.”

ALB: “ Haha… me too. And don’t think so much, weijie. See you.”

Haven’t really gotten my answer, I proceed to ask a few others…

A maid: “I never sleep. I just close my eyes for 2 hours. Mom and Sir want me to go market buy breakfast. If not, they send me home, back to Indonesia.”

A+ Scholar: “You see, it’s the habit we have since we were born. Of course, babies need more sleeps to let their brains develop and rest, but still, it’s their inner ability to cry and wake up for food and respond to the outer environment. That’s why, for those unconscious patients in hospitals, the longer they sleep, the less likely chance they will wake up….”

A lawyer: “Time is money. Sleep is no money. I love money. I live for money. Talk some more, I need you to give me money.”

An old man in the park (smile): “Are you talking to me? Haha…you good boy…”

A primary school student: “Cannot be late for school. Teacher will scold scold. I must do homework and be a good student then my mommy will buy for me presents.”

A bimbo: “I sleep so I can have no eye bag and stay pretty. Why wake up? Haha…I haven’t think about that.”

Last but not least,

A little girl named ally: “whatever!?!”

If there’s reincarnation, are you still scared of death?


It’s like God gave you a new ticket
To return to earth, to live again.
Time and situations may change,
But memories stay the same.

It brings a new way to how people connect.
Your family was mine beforehand.
I may be only four,
But I can show you that I lived before.

I still remember your grandpa’s name.
In my past, we were friends.
He died a year before Johnny was born.
At least that’s the name I now called.

For every death, there’s always a reborn.
As unbelievable as it may sound, it’s not.
God can do what Science cannot.
Belief is what we have got.

If there’s reincarnation,
Are you still scared of death?

Heroes : Rogue Wave- Eyes




The show and song I am hooked to right now.
Here's my version,

In my mind


Called you on your phone.
A guy picked up and told me you were not at home.

Well I didn’t know if it’s true,
There’s nothing I could do,
I putted down the phone,
But one thing I’m sure is you’re in my mind,
In my mind, in my mind…

Where’ve you gone this time?
It’s been 3 months and look at what you have done.

Winter is here,
It’s coming a new year.
You disappeared,
But one thing I’m sure is you’re in my mind,
In my mind, in my mind…

You are not me


My life has its perks and lousy times.
Still, it’s up to no one but me to define.
So quit saying I’m the champion when I rock,
Quit saying I’m fine when I’m not.

Don’t apologize cos I won’t die without.
I will find my own way, I don’t need your help.
Don’t cry, I hate it when you get loud.
Plus the fact that my mom can fake it better
Without making any sound.

Don’t try to find me, don’t even try to call.
Haven’t you noticed, you are not wanted anymore.
Go be someone else’s thorn,
Go find someone else to play along.

Everyone wishes…


Everyone wishes to have super powers,
The ability to be invisible,
To fly, to predict the future,
To prevent from getting hurt.

Everyone wishes to be super heroes,
To be the one in control,
To be in the know,
To be able to tell your love ones to stay out of danger and where to go.

Everyone wishes to be super natural,
To have a mission to save the world,
To at least come out with something to make life easier,
To be that someone special.

Everyone wishes for God to be a little biased,
To make each of us a little stronger.
The rules stay the same,
We are always the winners.

Are You Your Birthday?


Honestly speaking, at the age of 22, I'm still constantly trying to find out about myself, what sort of person I really am. Nevertheless, I'm one who never believe in doing the online quizs to see which type of kisser I am or what my underwears say about me. The truth is, I find the questions too idealistic and of course, I know, they are usually done by those who really have nothing better to do and therefore, shouldn't be looked upon too seriously. Then I came across this website the other day and found it to be quite accurate. The good thing is you don't have to answer any question but the bad thing is it's in chinese. Here it goes:


4月22日 計劃工程師

4月22日出生的人對于 具組織和建設本質的活動相當積極，其範圍不只是抽象的思想體系，還包括實際物質方面的建設。他們很擅長組織並經營家庭、餐廳、學校或任何社會團體，能使它 們正常地運作。矛盾的是，這些人並不特別愛交際，反而比較喜歡獨來獨往。他們大多是安安靜靜的，不太喜歡吸引別人的注意力。這天出生的人很懂得以輕松的方 式來完成艱苦任務的秘訣，而這種組織各種盛大集會的超強本領，遲早都會顯露出來的，就算沒能在職場上嶄露頭角，而只是運用在家庭聚會、開生日或結婚周年派 對這類的小場面中，只要是值得付出的，都能讓他們感到滿足和刺激。話說回來，4月22日出生的人如果不將才能發揮在商場上，那還真是浪費。有時候他們的組 織技巧很強，但有時會因為與上司的意見不合而感到心灰意冷，例如，他們可能會被指派去成立並經營一家別人名下的公司，卻在做得有聲有色之後，才發現老板太 過吹毛求疵或固執己見。諸如此類令人氣餒、沮喪的情形，常使他們寧可掛冠求去。從另一方面來說，4月22日出生的人和工作伙伴之間卻很少出問題。而在他們 摩下工作的人，也會很敬重這位上司的能力、實事求是的精神，以及豐富的人情味。不論體格壯碩與否，他們那威嚴的儀態常常是通往成功的重要因素。 4月22日出生的人最大的挑戰，在于控制自己的權力欲望。這些人當中發展得較好的，會表現得非常謙虛，既不逞能，也不驕傲；但發展得不夠好的人，則可能太 過專權，對人的態度也不夠寬容，而且常常令人難以更。這一天出生的人必須切記，應該公平、公正的運用他們發號施令的能力。雖然人世間可能會被財富和權貴人 士所眩惑，但不該全接受那些人的價值標準；而應該在研究、學習的技巧後，拒絕采用其中具破壞性的、不和諧的社會價值標準。 4月22日出生的人一旦建立了家庭、公司或組織後，每隔一段時間便會檢討它的發展是否達到自己所預期的理想。由于具有這樣的意識，他們可能會面臨一項大挑 戰，即是否要依照原訂的路線，繼續執行計劃；或是在某些重要的方面作修正；還是干脆放棄，改朝更有價值、更具意義的方向而努力。對這樣的人來說，他們通常 不知道何時該辭職，以及怎麼辭職，而且還可能因此引起精神上的痛苦和焦慮呢！此時他們必須要傾听自己內心的聲音。除此之外，為了避免被物質所奴投，這天出 生的人在精神層面上發展就顯得特別重要。

幸运数字和守护星 4月22日出生的人會受到數字4（2+2=4）以及天王星的影響。天王星代表的是古怪而且脾氣暴躁，因為這顆行星受到火星（牡羊座的主宰行星）和金星（金 牛座的主宰行星）的影響。4月22日出生的人在運用權力時，必須留意避免利用性或魅力，去達到控制別人的目的。受數字4支配的人，對人對事都有獨特的方法 和見解。由于他們常采取少數人的觀點，加上充滿自信，所以有時不免會招來敵意，樹立無數躲在暗處的敵人。此外22是雙數，因此4月22日出生的人經常會對 成雙成對的事物感興趣，例如雙胞胎、巧合的事情和對稱性等等。

健康 雖然在4月22日出生的人擁有一副說說、唱唱的好嗓子，但是他們卻可能會有頸部和喉嚨方面的健康問題。究竟是要一展這個好嗓音的天賦呢？還是要承受因其所 帶來的問題呢？這就得好好權衡一下了。對4月22日出生的人來說，性是非常重要的。他們可能對性十分著迷，也可能把它升華成各種不同的感官享樂形式，例 如，給人按摩或被人按摩，都能使這天出生的人產生一種特殊的快感。另外，當他們待在廚房時，都會感到非常快樂，因此應該盡可能讓自己悠游于品嘗和實驗美食 佳肴的天地中。適度的運動有助于對抗體重的增加，但是要避免運動過度。

建议

塔罗牌 大秘儀塔羅牌的第22張是“愚者”。圖案是一個人快活地站在懸崖邊。有的解釋是他十分愚蠢，缺乏理性判斷的能力；有的則指出他們極端崇尚精神層面，不在乎 現實。總的來說就是憑直覺行事、沒有描繪和抵抗的能力；同時，也代表了愚蠢、沖動和虛無。不過他們之中較成熟的，則會從生命的歷練中學取經驗，然後成為自 己理想中的人。

静思语 在黑暗中看事物，看不清楚，那麼就用心來感受吧。

优点 組織力強、實事求是、相貌威嚴。

缺点 不易相處、崇尚物質。

Last night's daydreaming...


Playing ball, wasting time,
Trying to get you out my mind.
But in my room I still find,
The scent of your perfume you left behind.

My mom once told me this,
“Good-flower-no-scare-bees-don’t-visit”.
But I never understand why they always leave
After they got their honey.

There has been time like this,
You said it’s because of the timing,
It’s not that you don’t love me,
It’s just a little more space that you need.

And so I wait for you to come around,
To finally realize I am forever your honey,
That there’s no where you can find another flower like me,
That you are just wasting your time and wasting me.

But now, I’m just playing ball,
Smelling the perfume you left behind.
If you were not meant for me,
Then I don’t know anything.

My first love letter 16th april 1979


I have been hiding my feelings inside.
To think that you are the one for me
Ever since I caught you in my eyes,
It’s not exactly what I anticipated in mind.

Lately my presence is getting on the nerves of everybody
Even my best friend doesn’t seem to get me.
I don’t know what is happening,
Only that your smile and your perfect hair aren’t really helping.

My world, I just want it to be just you and me.
My time, I just want it to freeze when you were with me.
My plan, I just want it to involve around you and me.
My dream, I just want it to be you and me.

Are you feeling what I am feeling?
Are you on the same page as me?
Am I the only one dreaming?
Am I supposed to be the one waiting?

Maybe an answer from you will end my misery.
But then will I still get to see u every morning?

It’s official

After 3 years of wondering which engineering I might be getting into in NTU, I finally got my answer on 25^th June 2007. I’m glad to announce that it’s my first choice: Mechanical Engineering. The best part is Akbar, Eugene, Junjie, Kenny…and all are going to study the same course too. At least now, I have got Akbar to go to school with everyday. I’m glad.

GST credit has already been deposited into my bank account. That will be an additional $300 to spend before I get my part time job. At the moment, $300 may seems to be quite a big sum of money to me, but still it’s not an excuse not to find a job for the month of July. In Singapore, you will NEED MORE THAN $300 to SURVIVE.

The weather has been really really hot these days. At first, I thought I can cut my hair only before school reopens (to save money), but I changed my mind when I realized I has been bathing at least 2 times everyday. So... here is it... my new haircut.

Before>>>>>>>>>>> After

It's show time...

It’s been over a week since I am done with my psychology paper. “How’s it?” Let’s not go there. Right now, I am almost free while hunting for a temp job before school starts in aug again. I seriously hate how money makes the rich lazy and the poor ones working. It’s not that working is a bad thing but seeing those wealthy ones going overseas for holiday or, at least, enjoying their time at the Great Singapore Sale really makes my eyes sore. DO I HAVE A CHOICE? This is the key issue. No money = No talk + No choice.

Maybe I am pushing myself too hard. I meant what was I thinking when I decided to take a special term one week right after my exam was over, and now, can’t wait to work after my special term is over. Maybe I should just like my hair down a little before they are all gone due to stress and tiredness. At least until I got my temp job.

While waiting for grey’s anatomy to start its 4^th season, I am watching Brothers & Sisters starring the one and only Calista Flockhart. To be honest, She is the reason why I watch the series at first but now, I am hooked to all the characters and relationships of the Walker’s family. Every episode is like a party. I am hoping for the 2^nd season to be aired soon. If not, I will be spending more hours on drama shows rather than lect notes when school reopens.

Speaking of school, I got kicked out of my hall. Haiz... I got all my stuff back at home and after the special term, i must say, I am still not used to the traveling. As a result, all I can do now is to plan my time table really really well in order to save time and travel cost. But according to what they said, yr2 's schedule will be tigher than yr1's. We shall see how then.

You are all that matters

It’s the crave of sleeping with you every wake-up in the mornings.
It’s the noise of my alarm clock that disturbed your sleep.
It’s the getaway you planned so hard but I failed to meet.
It’s the number of “I love you” in exchange with my “I’m sorry”.

It’s the smell of your breathe in the mid of a cold breeze.
It’s the taste of your tongue like nobody’s.
It’s the words you said that made me believe in fairy tales again.
It’s the moment when I look at you and you don’t look away.

It’s the everyday life you turn into Halloween.
It’s how right you were about me that I hate to admit.
It’s how you pretend to like my taste in music.
It’s the number of calls from you in London when I was sick.

And of course, it’s the expensive gifts you showered on me
and telling me how my smile is all you need.

These days…

Finally, I am done with psychology quiz 1 and 2. Just one week after my exam, psychology module kicked in and it’s 10 chapters to study within 5 weeks. Like Biology, it’s an interesting subject, with lots of nice videos to see. But it’s a lot of information to digest with very little time. Seriously, you can’t cover a chapter within the 2 hours lecture. So no choice, weekend have to be spent studying the textbook. Quiz 1- 14/16, Quiz 2- 15/16…not bad right?

Moved out of my hall, which means back to staying at home. I still find it a chore to travel from home to school, especially for just 2 hrs lessons, 3 times a week. Maybe this is the reason why I choose to stay in hall in the first place. I just hope that they will accept my hostel application for my yr2.

Being at home means more tv time. I have been losing touch of the news and the outside world during my stay in hall. Sadly, all the news I heard is not good news. There are so many cases in which people die just like that. Incidents like the 2 NSFs in Taiwan training, the women killed by fallen tree during her morning walk…etc. It really makes me realize how sudden your life can be taken away…like the chickens and ducks in the farms. The only difference is you have your love ones crying for you after you were gone and it’s like that will make things better?!?

Finally, i watched "Hard Candy". It's the movie I wanted to watch since sem1 but I remembered only a few cinemas has it and Eugene chose to watch "The Lake House" over it. By the way, “Hard Candy” is not a porno film. I told so many of my friends and porn is the first thing that came to their heads. Anyway, “Hard Candy” is definitely more realistic and intense than “The Lake house”. It’s about a 32 yo guy meeting up a 14 yo teenage girl whom he chatted over the Internet and realized he is not on top of his game. Still, it’s not porn.

Finally, exam over, yr1 over. Yeah, 3 months long break. I wanna thank akbar and xin xin and sandy and students from my malay class. Without you all, I will not be able to even finished my malay exam paper. So TERIMA KASIH! OH…and happy belated birthday to me…haha…BIG 22 on the 22^nd of April. It’s a big thing!!! Spent it with Eugene, studying material science!?! So glad that my room mate is Eugene. I wanna eat pizza and he agreed. It's really the small little things that count. And thanks for the Avril lavigne CD, The Best Damn Thing. I am happy. And thanks chin bee for spiderman 3 even though she is the one who wanna watch it. I am happy.
22 liao…I still remembered my 21^st birthday wish is to enjoy my uni life and make some good friends, and I did. I just wish my result will be good this time round. Haha… but no matter what my results will be, I tried my best…not studying, but doing the exam papers. Trust me, there is a difference. Meanwhile, I wanna dedicate this song to all the teachers who set the exam papers…Thanks…

I Like Studying on 20042007

I like studying.
The fact that it makes me think,
Think of the weirdest reason,
Just to get out of it.

Suddenly the room needs to be cleaned.
Suddenly my stomach is always empty.
Suddenly I agreed it’s good to sleep early.
Suddenly I can’t seem to breathe.

Maybe it’s due to the weather.
Maybe the bed is a better table.
Maybe I should use pen instead of pencil.
Maybe studying is not my kind of thing after all these years.

Unless the notes have all the answers.
Unless I can beat all those china students.
Unless Avril lavigne would be my teacher.
Unless I can concentrate a little better.

But I like studying,
Just that it makes me think,
Think of the weirdest reason,
To get out of it.

HEADACHE



Since when has it become a monthly post? Haha...guessed that it looks like it for now. Sem 2 is really going very fast, and before i realised it, exam is in less than 20 days. Ya... I know. Here it goes again. It's time to start digging for coins in the spare pockets of my jeans and throw them into the wishing well(if you get wat i meant). I really don't have confidence in any of the paper this time round.
No time, no time, no time... I wrote stuff, will find time to post them after the exam before i lost the bits and pieces of my writing paper. Anyway, this post is not only about whining, but to share a piece of good news. SUN YANZI 10TH Ablum is finally finally out. I quite like it, even though i was hoping for more surprises, most of the songs are her normal bittersweet love songs...which are also good by the way. Maybe I will like it more, and I always will, when I listen to them more, but now, it's back to lecture notes and tutorials.

My own hero


We talked, we nodded,
Showing our signature smiles.
I thought, some sort,
It’s gonna last for awhile.

But no, you go,
Leaving me here alone.
It’s cold and I know,
Only I can be my own hero.

And i say,
Time will grow into years.
Time will tell what you have learnt.
Time will evaporate your tears.
Time will mend what you have burnt.

Soon enough the pain will fade away.
For now, it still feels like yesterday,
The look on your face and the things u said,
The memories still swimming in my head.


PS, Happy Valentine's Day

I’m shedding my skin

Pls don’t think U know me

I'm not who I used to be

Don’t make me into your own belief

It’s a new beginning

Just wait N see

Bittersweet Memories

If you were to ask me what kind of student I used to be,
Honestly speaking, I couldn’t give you an exact answer.
Lessons were always boring from what I could remember,
With me hiding at the far end of the corner.

Ya…I was that kid in high school.
And what kept me going was the trip to school.
I would wake up early to stand in front of the queue,
Not boarding the train until I saw you.

I never knew your name,
We weren’t from the same school.
Your uniform always looked so new,
I felt so good standing next to you.

If only you knew how I feel,
If only I were within your scope of view,
If only you would take some time away from your book,
If only I had the courage to say “I like you”.

True enough, I didn’t get to see you after the summer break.
I even went to wait at your school’s main gate.
It’s either you have moved or graduated,
But it sure left me with one hell of a heartache.

Thanks and no thanks…

Thanks for telling me you visit my blog diligently, no thanks for asking me to update my blog diligently… and thanks for telling me everything is gonna be better once I get used to the situations. I guess I am getting used to being a schoolboy again. Getting used to getting over with getting lousy grades. Now, it’s going to be just mugging for the nightmare that is going to haunt me in less than a month time. Meaning to say, I will be coming in here less often. Anyhow, hope to bring you guys good news during my next update. Wish me luck and all the concentration I need. I will miss you all and this is true.

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Tell me...

It’s not about getting the As and Bs,
It’s not about meeting the deadlines,
It’s not about being punctual for lectures,
It’s not about finding answers to your tutorials,
It’s not about getting ahead of the class,
It’s not about chasing time,
It’s not about being right.
Tell me…

A guy like me can only hold up for so long. It’s intense, very very intense hanging in there and I am done. I just want to sit down and waste time. I just want to have more fun. Yeah, I’m unhappy and complaining and you are right, I’m living in Singapore, the tell-me-when-to-smile city. Kill me now…pls…I promise I will die smiling.

Finally....



One week break from school, not school work...but school. Although there's some catching up of work to do, tv time will still be, of course, tv time.

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This is Me so far….


Sitting in a LT,
That’s how my day usually begins.
With a pencil and a highlighter,
Painting the notes on the table.

Trying hard listening to the lecturer,
As the surrounding’s murmurs getting louder.
An hour passed and I have no idea,
When the lecturer asked if we got the whole picture.

Attending tutorials after lunch is the worst.
Your eyes start to close even if your tutor is a pretty girl.
“Vectors, Optics, Limits, Acid…etc” so many chapters,
Takes only one month to cover.

Soon it’s two weeks to exam.
Chinese saying, I’m like an ant
Under a wok of fire.
Now then I realized,
Uni life is, after all, not that enjoyable.

My 100th entry...


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A Day As a Banquet

Today, I joined my aunt to be a banquet at the Le Meridien hotel. I always thought working as a banquet would be quite relaxing until I tried it out myself. After filling up the personal information and collecting our uniforms, we went for a briefing by the manager who divided the lot of banquets into 4 teams. In my team, there are 3 guys and 3 gals and turned out that the guys would be the runners whose role was to bring out all the plates of food to gals to serve. Imagine carrying 10 plates of main course dishes on a tray for countless of rounds…Furthermore, different dishes are located at different rooms and you really have to walk fast, not run, so as not to break the plates or glasses. The gals will be inside the hall topping drinks for the guests. After the guests finished the food, the runners then have to bring all the dirty plates, collected by the gals, into the big smelly basin in the kitchen. The grant finale will be the packing up after the guests left. The gals cleared up the tables while the guys stacked up the chairs and rolled the cleared tables into the furniture room. All in all, it’s really like sia kang for just $6 per hour. The good thing is I managed not to break anything and my captain and staffs were nice. But honestly speaking, being a banquet is really not my dish. It’s going to be my once in a lifetime experience and hence, the photo for memory.

Less fantasy, more reality

When Love needed some motions,
Are you going to make it happen?
Don’t just say all the right things,
I’m not sure how long I can keep waiting.

There’s a thing they have been telling me.
Better regret the things you do, than the things you don’t do.
I don’t need you to be a slut or something,
I just need you to know, you can have my cake and eat it too.

So go for it, I’m sure you will like.
Don’t be shy, I shall give you some guides.
Kiss me when you say you love me,
Bite me when you feel like it.

“Less fantasy, more reality” is my policy,
Do you get what I mean?

Before we look at all the pics of smiling faces and celebrate our national day…

I wanna say, stop the war,
Stop those gunshots…

I don’t wanna wake up every morning
To find my only goal is to stay alive,
In this living hell where I see people die,
Every waking moment of my life.

I don’t wanna learn how to use a gun
To have the thought of using it,
To shoot the bad guys who try to rape me
Every night.

I don’t wanna leave everything behind,
Look up to the middle of the sky
For bombs which will be coming down
To where I hide.

I don’t wanna lie to my child,
To say that it is gonna be ok,
When I might be gone for a second,
And never ever be coming back.

I wanna say, we are all
Human beings with thoughts and feelings
for god’s sake,
not just some piece of "walking meat".

Let the anger goes,
Let the bullets go,
Let the innocents go,
Let the tears go.....

I miss Ally Mcbeal .....



This is one of my fav shows which accompanied me through my lonely sec school life...I would never fail to catch it on channel 5...haha...Thinking of getting the dvds...But where???

I just watched the show and I have to say I really enjoyed it. I love watching horror movies especially when they have taught me one thing or two. Of course, if you don’t watch it, you won’t learn from it. So I really urge those who haven’t watched this show to go try. It’s not really scary after all.

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Too Lost In You






All my friends seem to be doing ok.
Why am I the only one not in the case?
I don’t need plenty of dates,
I just need you to think my way.

Tell me you are busy.
Yes, you know I will believe.
Tell me you are not ignoring me.
Cos you have no idea what you have done to me
By not doing anything.

I wish I could compete
With all those stuff that are preventing you from loving me.
I don’t know what I am doing,
I just wanna make you happy.

And you can’t blame me,
You are the one making me lose me.
God, please tell me it’s worth it,
Or wake me up from this dream.

For those leaving us, leaving Singapore for studies, aka the rich ones....

ppl like chris (already there), yong sheng, ziyang, terrance...etc

A song for u...

A night in the life of a prostitute… Just imagine…

You came in,
Glares exchanged.
You picked me, to make you happy.
First we went hawker to dine-in,
You were not stingy,
I had all I want to eat.

We talked abit,
You said I was too skinny,
You kept feeding me.
But I thought, being thin
Is one of the reasons you chose me.

Next, to a hotel room, we booked in.
You were nervous, I could see.
It’s good, cos I don’t like guys too friendly.
Then…

“DON”T READ FURTHER IF U THINK U WILL GET OFFENDED”

After we bathed, this is when it begins.
Your hands on my silky skin,
Your lips exploring every inch,
You were gentle, like it’s your first time in.

"You are my master; I’m your queen."
“Go deep, feel the magic…”
On bed, on table, on floor beside the fringe,
God, you were better than I imagined.

It’s 3am, you were sleeping like a baby.
On the lamp table, I saw your money.
Not wanting to wake you,
I took it, assuming it’s for me.
Good night and good bye, Mr....eh...darling.

It all Started with a Router…haha...

I am so happy!!! I sold my first Linksys Wireless N router today. Haha, never thought I can make that deal before I quit the job. Reason is because it’s the newest and most expensive router from Linksys (just came out during the IT show 2006 in early this month) and it’s an untold-but-known policy that whenever customers come into the shop to ask for expensive stuff (meaning more than $200), they belong to the seniors’ sale. However, today, it’s only a senior, a junior and I.

“Oh my god, I nearly forgot to mention: I have got a junior. Haha… My boss is kind enough to give me a newcomer to torture for a while before I leave the job. Haha… I’m kidding la. Just ask him to do all the vacuuming of floor, wiping the glass panes, clearing of garbage, putting the price tags, arranging the goods and buying lunch for the rest of us while I’m reading Today only mah. I mean that’s what he will be doing after I leave, so it’s good to let him adapt to the working environment fast. Right?!? Haha…”

Back to the topic, so my senior was serving a customer who was planning to get an IP camera (most expensive in the shop…). Then this customer came in and asked for linksys router. I have no idea he want, or neither did he know that he want a Wireless N router. After explaining to him how a router actually works, he wished to take a look at the high-end router, which leads to me introducing him the $239 product. This is my first time trying to sell that product to a customer and when he said he wants, I tell you, even my senior stopped explaining to his customer and looked at us. Haha… The feeling is really really great. It reminded me of the first router I sold when I first started working. For those who don’t know, before I joined the company, I know no shit about what router is. Haha….

But good times always end fast. Tomorrow will be my last day working at Sim lim. When I handed my resignation letter to my boss, he asked me whether I wished to work part time on Saturdays and Sundays when school starts. I promised to give him an answer after I got my NTU course time-table. If time permit, there’s no reason to say “NO” to money.

I really have a great time working all these while. I must really thank the staff, my boss and my friends who came to visit me and see how I am doing. I really appreciated it. Plus, I also saw some celebrities like, jeanette aw, bryan wong from super idol, Linda liow…. etc.

Now, I’m just looking forward to having a good break and some revision before school starts. For those who are free and interested, can ask me out in the month of July. Be quick to book me, before you need a queue number from me…haha…

Love to game

You think I have a motive to be good to you.
If so, do you still want me to be good to you?
Cos you were angry when I start to ignore you.
Please tell me if I fit your bill,
I’m tired of trying to guess how you feel.

Can I still trust love to know me best;
To help me determine whether to be happy/sad;
To return to my first love if she wants me back;
Or to just settle for the 2^nd best?

Cos love is not a dating game;
Definitely not some competitions among ‘kids’.
So don’t treat me like a pig,
To come to me just to satisfy your needs.
You should know what I meant.

Time flies…

Today is my off day and I have to go for my follow up appointment at the national eye center. It’s been a week since my lasik surgery and, according to my doctor, Mr Leonard Ang, everything is looking fine. “The eyesight will still fluctuate as the wound is still healing and an eye test will be done to confirm your perfect eyesight one month later.” That’s was he said.

After that, it’s dinner time at Jurong Point with Mingrui and Zhaojun. It’s first meet up after we got our A level results in 2004. 2 years come and go, just like that. We had Fish & Co. which was also a birthday treat for Zhaojun from the 2 of us. My first time at Fish & Co. and I would say the food just tasted ok. But seriously, it’s the company and the time we had that counts. We chatted just about anything and it’s good to know that everything is looking good for the both of them. I mean, 2 years and they still look the same as before, just prettier… haha… If you don’t believe me, just look at the pics below. But don’t need to think too much cos both of them are attached liao… I can’t wait to go ntu and see how the rest of my friends are doing. According to them, they are doing not bad either. After the chatting and window-shopping and photo taking, it’s home sweet home, tired but happy.

Zhaojun and me

Mingrui and me (smiled until cheek ache cos zj dont know how to use my cam, keep retaking)

Finally, the DA4 HE2 Zhao4

Current Song :Cry- faith hill

I Hate You

I thought I have given you up,
Until you suddenly showed up.
I didn’t know what to do,
I hid behind you.

I couldn’t help but look at you,
Though I didn’t even have the guts to ask, “How are you?”
Until you were out of my view,
Pain is only what I could feel.
That’s when I realized I am far from over you.

I hate you for making me fall for you.
I hate you for telling me how to deal,
Bullshitting about what time could heal.
I hate you for not feeling any guilt.

If only there’s one last thing you could do for me,
Please help me to get you out of my life completely.

I hate you, I hate you, I hate......

“Just relax your eyes and focus on the red light…”

Yah, that’s what my operating doctor said to me in the Operation Room (OR) when I went for my lasik today. 10 question marks immediately popped out above my head. “Focus or relax?” I asked the doctor. “Focus.” He told me. Obediently, I followed all the instructions and I must say it went quite well. No pain, just lied down and looked up at the red dot of light for 5min and let him do the work. And that’s it, end of operation. Now, all I have to do is to put artificial teardrops every 15 mins and antibiotic drop every 2 hours…for a week. Tomorrow will be a check to see if every thing went as well as I thought. Till then, I will be keeping my fingers crossed and dropping my teardrops.

SO HOW......

So this is how you express love?
Just said it and then go sleep with others.
After the night of action then come call me your precious.

Tell you what, darling, I don’t work this way no more.
I can wake up in the middle of my sweet little dream and not free any heartache.
Just because I know it’s all unreal anyway.

So you think I will turn and look the other side,
When you finally decide to apologize for my countless sleepless nights.
Save your breath cos I not need that,
I am fine over at this side.

So if you have crossed the line I drew,
And still act like nothing’s wrong and be so cool.
Don’t blame me for walking out without leaving a clue.
I want you out of my life for good.

A walk down memory lane


Weijie>>>Won Bin>>>Chad>>>???

2003 jc2 Pioneer Junior College


2004 Sispec


2005 Kranji Camp NAtional Day Carnival



2006 ORD

Love me, Pick me, Choose me


Like a breeze, it comes gently and goes quietly.
Only the ones in it felt it no matter how light it is.
Very often we let it slip away before we realized what we missed.
Ever did anyone tell you to feel it if you can’t see?

My lord, here I am speaking like a love pro.
Even when I know you know so much I don’t know.

Please forgive me, for not listening.
I was blinded by the light others gave.
Can you give me a second chance?
Keep me warm again with your golden sun.

Memories might trap us and stop us from moving forward,
Eating our guts to love might not necessarily prevent hurt.

Connect your body, mind and soul.
Hop onto the ride; be ready to get what you have sowed.
Only the good ones grow well to be told.
Only the good ones know.
So don’t waste anymore chances, stop being cold.
Every little thing adds up to your goal.

My friend, if you know what I mean,
Email me, tell me about it.

Don't be ALARMED with my Alarm Clock


A lot of people have been asking me about the list of stuff I bought from Sim Lim Square. "Good or bad? Got cheaper or not? Why buy this? Why like that?" Haha... I don't mind being the guinea pig or to answer all your questions, but please don't question my answers. If that's the case, why bother to ask me in the first place? For those who know me well will know that I don't spend money like running tap water. In fact, I would consider myself to be someone who is too careful with money, especially, when it comes to my hard earned money you are talking about. So there's this question about the alarm clock that I die die have to buy at Sim Lim. Haha... I find it quite practical wat... I need it to wake me up every morning for work!!! And it's also because of its design. Don't know how to describe. Here's the picture of it... with me...



It's very cheap. Can still get back your change with a $10 note.

Similar faces, all doing great


thanks junjie for the photo


So here we are, gathered for the first time after we ord, at the suntec ballroom for our ord dinner. I must say, it’s the best dinner I have since my prom night. I don’t know why, I can’t help but to recall back my prom night. Maybe it’s because of the formal thing, and MC and the games stuff and the lucky draw… Ya, I think it’s the formal thing. I never wear formal clothes to dinners, other than prom night, n then this. It’s a good dinner though, no ranks, no hard feelings, no nothing, just a bunch of friends coming together, enjoying a nice evening.

After all, nothing can beat a night spent with good entertainment, good food with good friends beside. Speaking about good entertainment, all thanks to the MC of the night. God, he is so so good that he made 41SAR looked such a fun unit to stay in. I came so close to consider signing on to the unit. Haha…. Just kidding. But still, he is good and experienced. Witty and yet crappy speeches, good timing to music, he seems to be doing this like forever.

Seeing how well each and everyone is doing, even for the regulars and those still in army- waiting to get out, can’t help but feel happy for them. Really, ORD is great. ORD means a lot of things made possible ahead. Seeing all these smart people, once I have worked with, fulfilling their various dreams, really make me excited for them too. Haha… I don’t know exactly what their various dreams were, or how well they are working on them, but I know that they all looking very good, too good to be letting all their wishes say NO to them. Still I wish all of them the very best.

Now back at home, back to reality… need to get back to bed. Working tmr… nite

With hairs, comes white hair


1. Work, work and more work… No time for TV, let alone blogging. Eating dinner, Watching grey’s anatomy and blogging at the same time. Ya, tell me about it.

2. Shop, shop and more shopping. Suddenly realized how many stuff I brought home from SIM LIM Square. A linksys router, Panasonic earphones, usb 2.0 pci, 50 dvd-r, alarm clock ?!?, TV tuner and most importantly, an Acer laptop. I think I am returning all my pay back to sim lim… or more…

3. I am happy. Unlike most of my customers, I am able to put the stuff I bought into good use. Done setting up a network with my pc and laptop using a router, record TV programes into my pc using TV tuner, burn the shows into DVD with my laptop. Phew~ But still, got time to burn, no time to watch.

4. Begin to pick up on reading, on the mrt trains to and back from work. That’s the only time I have for myself. Now reading “A simple story” by S.Y.Agnon. Not so much of a simple story, but it’s a nice, enchanting, easy to read book.

5. So many invitations I cant go to. For examples, my army mate, Chris Neo leaving Singapore for good but I cant go airport to send him off, jc friend, lena’s 21 birthday party, the ord dinner coming up…still not sure if I can attend it or not. Haiz…. All because of my job. I’m sorry, but not so sorry. Reason because I happen to like my job very much.

6. Still I need a break. I want to give myself a time off before entering ntu. So maybe, I will be handing in my resignation letter at the end of june. Yeah, they are expecting a resignation letter from me, how ionic is that. We shall see.

7. They said, “what you don’t think of cant attract you”, but, thinking of how you are not in my thoughts, I thought of you. Hope you are listening…

8. All in all, my life is organized in the way it wants to be right now.

9.Ord, the best thing that has happened to me so far.

LOVE . RULES . NOT FUNNY


Isn’t love a funny thing?
Or is it us being ionic?
Ok, we all know it’s something we need.
And we will go all the way,
Just to find that special somebody.
Lying, being screwed… so be it.

But when we finally come face to face with it,
We turn away,
Too timid, so to speak,
Too afraid of losing it.

No, I’m not going to turn away this time.
I’m not going to do something I might regret
For the rest of my life.

Because I still like it when you care if my appetite is fed,
Because I still like it when you order food for me.
Because I still like it when you know what is good for me.
Because I still like it when you do the thing (with that thing).

And so,
If love has a rule, screw it.
Life is too damn short to be following with these rules.
If love comes with a price, bring it.
I have got nothing to lose.

Working society I gonna adapt fast to enjoy it

Finally no OT today, and after a nap, I decided to write about my first 3 days experience as an IT retail assistant at SIM LIM SQUARE. First of all, I must be considered lucky that the staffs I have been working with so far are quite nice to me. I have learnt a lot about networking like cables, routers, bluetooth, PDAs and memory cards, which I hardly come across to before I started working. Basically, that’s what we sell. Everyone has been very patience with me and I am trying to learn fast to not be a troublesome colleague to the senior stuffs.

A daily routine in a shop for me is to tidy up the shop in the morning, greet and serve the customers who entered the shop and answers their questions as short and simple as possible. At the end of the day, 7.30pm++, count the day’s earning and close the shop. As a temp staff, making a deal and competing sale’s coda with my working staff is the least concern I have in mind. I am just enjoying the conversations I have with the customers (mainly the good looking ones) and the things I do. But that doesn’t mean I feel good when the temp staffs keyed in their names instead of mine when I was the one who sell the products to the customers. You see, I am still new and I am still not allowed to touch the cashier computer. But, for now, I just treat it as my learning fee for them and if they really need my sales to help them hit the 40k coda per month for commission, I am glad to help.

Throughout these 3 days, I have seen some of my friends already. At least they still recognize me in long sleeve shirt and business pants and leather shoes. Before that, I don’t even know there’s sale person who wears formal wear in SIM LIM. I am not complaining about the attire or anything, NO, I am complaining about the attire. I HAVE LIMITED PAIRS OF LONG SLEEVE SHIRTS AND BUSINESS PANTS. Haha… But that’s nothing when compared to long hours of standing (11am-8pm), 6 workdays a week, no lunch break (have to eat in shop when there’s no customer), a nasty boss and sometimes, nasty customers too. By the time I reached home, it’s about 10pm tired and hungry (without having my dinner yet). It’s hard earned money I have to say. 4th day is Good Friday and I am expecting more customers. Just looking forward to my first off day now. Nite…

At Last, I C My IC Again

10th of April,
No longer a soldier.
No more suffer
Under SAF’s orders.

“Ord lor!!!”
Finally said it like I really mean it. Throughout these 2 yrs and 4 mths, I think I have met and interact with more people than I ever have during my school days. PTP>>BMT>>SISPEC>>SOA>>KRANJI CAMP, Smelly Recruit>>Lousy Spec.

Not all people are nice,
True feelings they tend to hide.
And they don’t always do what you like.
Some of them even bite.

There were times when I really felt like quitting (downgrade and find the easy way out). Fortunately/ Unfortunately, due to my “chicken little” characteristic, I carried on with it and here I am writing this. Before closing this chapter of my life(it’s about time already), I wanna say thank you to all the people who help me throughout the journey and make my experience one that is free of Extras, 12o6, SOL, DB…..etc. THANK YOU……Lastly, for those who are still on this journey, I wanna say to you, “hang on, it’s soon gonna be your turn.”

Last night, I had a gathering with my sec school band friends for the first time in 4 years. It’s a pity for those who can’t make it because we really had a good time. Everyone looks pretty good and successful at their stage of lives right now. One thing that hasn’t change is that they are still very nice people. We went for a restaurant for dinner before kboxing till 2.15am at orchard. My first kbox experience and it’s with a bunch of friends I haven’t met in years. Just hope that I didn’t embarrass myself and everyone in the room. Another added bonus is I got clips for my secondary four SYF band performance. For those who didn’t know, I was a percussionist in my school years. Below are the clips and if you are looking for me, I am the one standing behind at the left side of the stage playing the timpani. Well, it’s not pro standard, we got bronze, but it’s all good memories. Once again, thank you Xiu Hua for everything.

PHS SYF 2001 Intro



PHS SYF 2001 Singapura Medley



PHS SYF 2001 Oregon