Lost to helpless


Sometime I wish I were mute,
Since I can’t express what I want.
Always saying the wrong things at the wrong time,
Causing trouble, killing all the fun.
Sometime I wish I were deaf,
Especially when I were mute.
No points hearing others sing when I can’t.
Give me either all or none.
Sometime I wish I were blind.
But not when I was deaf and mute.
I still don’t wanna be left behind,
To be helpless and wait for someone kind.
Haiz, screw it,
I can’t even make up my mind.

We All Grow

Little children grow,
Grow to what they wanna show.
To impress people they wanna know,
To get into the flow and go
To fulfill their dreams and goals,
To become greater person they ever know.
Eventually to find someone before getting old,
And make life less cold as they were told.
Yes, little children grow
To what only time will know.

I got the Job


The news came earlier than what I expected. I was actually still sleeping when Joyse called. I called back and she told me to go to her office at 11am on 11 April 2006 before she will accompany me to the IT shop, which I will be working in SIM LIM. You see, I told you she is a nice person and nice person brings good news. Looking forward to the 10 April 2006, my ORD date like I always do.

Today I went for my first ever job interview to be a retail assistant in an IT shop. It’s short but went pretty well. I reached the office about 15 min earlier and was asked to wait in a meeting room. While waiting, a lady gave me an application form to fill up my particulars. She didn’t bring me pen but luckily for me, I got mine in my bag. Then it was the interview in another room with another lady named Joyse. She was rather soft spoken and instead of telling me what they require the person they want to hire to be, she asked me for what I would like to do. She made the interview about me instead of about them, which is nice because it really makes the conversation less pressure for a first timer like me. Everything she said was quite pleasant for my ears, nevertheless the 6 days work week. I mean if there’s one thing SAF had taught me for the past 2 years, it has to be to go for what you like and not to focus on money and other stuff. But of course, that is when you have the choice in the first place. After 20 min of chatting, I began to get a little cold because of the air con and my stomach starts to make noise. To prevent her from listening to that noise, I spoke non-stop and made sure there’s never a point of time neither of us were talking. Fortunately, I don’t think she hear things she was not supposed to and it all ended by her telling me to wait for her call on Friday while she gets back to her boss. One thing they considering is that I only can work for 3 months before going for studies. Like I have got any other choice, I’ll wait.

Now stop what you are doing, listen to me.
You see, now singing is the most ‘in’ thing
And there’s nothing greater than being on TV.
Prepare yourself; get your voice ready,
Cos you never know who they are voting.
Sometimes you got in, sometimes you got out,
Sometimes, if you were really lucky,
You got in after you got out.
But remember this,
There’s no reason to be sad if you can’t win,
At least you got yourself on TV.
Give yourself some credit,
Your passion is what they can’t beat.

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

I learnt to appreciate coffee,
When my aunt insisted hers was good;
I took a sip.
I learnt to appreciate maggi,
When my grandma cooked it for me,
Using her secret recipe.
I learnt to appreciate myself,
When I see the figures jumping in my bank account monthly,
I bought myself gifts.
I learnt to appreciate friends,
When they told me it’s on every Monday night,
They brought happiness to my life.
I learnt to appreciate my home,
When I only got to visit it once every week,
With that, I thank the army.