Few more hours before we say our final goodbye to 2005 and welcome our long await 2006. 2005 has been the most challenging year for me so far. There have been a lot of new people met, new changes to adapt and new requirements needed to meet. Scary, scary, scary… Luckily, I have some true friends to count on and I really have to thank them for being so understanding. I know I have to work on my childish acts and situation awareness. 2006 is definitely a good year to look ahead to. We got my ord coming, yar… and, actually this reason is more than enough…haha…Got to go countdown…You know you have to show it if you really want it…

We are all busy,
Too busy to care more about each other’s feelings.
That’s why we have festivals like thanksgiving,
To show, in our lives, that you are not missing.
So don’t be such a petty,
It’s not like you are all so giving.
Just remember we are all busy,And well, at least, we got our thanksgiving.

Your Birthdate: April 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know. Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid Your power color: Silver Your power symbol: Square Your power month: April

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Two years ago, on this very day, I enlisted. Meaning to say, today is my 2nd yr anniversary with SAF. Not something great, not something worth celebrating but, it's still a date. Today's NSF no longer need to meet this date, unless they do something so wrong that will extend their ord dates. I believe that's the last thing they wish to happen. They said, you can skip army if you got the money, but I think, it's not bad to get paid to learn some gunnery after all.


For a friend of mine who unfortunately died during army,


He is a boy with a simple mind,
always tries to help others and be kind.
Never think of himself or his life,
he is one of a kind you can't find.


After his jc years, it's 2 years of NS.
Feeling motivated, there's nothing to fear.
But after a year, there's ought to be tears.
No matter how much he hates it, there's still another year.


It's not about being pushed around.
It's not about a new bad friend you found.
It's not about the many mistakes you lost count.
It's really not as bad as it sounds.

For all the things I've got,

I praise the lord.

For all the things I'm not,

I praise the lord.

For he gives me a place to belong,

for he gives me a good life i always forgot,

for everything and anything,

I praise the lord.

Some stuff I wrote when I was in Australia, RockHampton.


To my greatest grandpa,


I know you are happy,
I see you smiling in my dreams.
I’m sorry,
Your love is so taken for granted when you were alive.
I hope you are with me,
Not the things you left behind.
I miss you so badly,
Words can’t even describe.
Sweet memories I will keep,
Till I meet you in my second life.


Idiot / fuc*ker


I hate when people are so practical.
They smile at you
Only when they need a favour.
And throw you one side
When you are not needed any further.
Indeed, it makes you feel like an idiot.
Trying to wonder, “is it worth taking the trouble?”
In the end, it’s up to each individual
To be an idiot or a fuc*ker.



Making Love


At 20,
I love you,
To let you take my breath,
Make you sweat,
Kiss your ass.

At 30,
I love you,
To let you in my body,
Taste your honey,
Bear your baby.

At 40,
I love you.
I lied,
Fake my orgasm,
Let you rest.


I need money.
Any kind soul to help me?
Get me a job that’s easy,
And not time consuming.
Considering the fact that I’m still in the army.
I’m not choosy,
But for god’s sake,
Stop telling me to go changi,
To sell my ass and body.
I’m not that cheap to start with.
Seriously, I need money.
Can you hire me?


Look at me,
That’s only so much you can see.
Don’t judge me,
You don’t even know me.
Let me be,
Like you care if I were happy.
Set me free,You know you don’t need me.

To all my friends, I’m back
Thanks for all the concern you have had
I’m still good so don’t be scared.
Now all I need is a short little nap.

3 weeks,
21 days,
504 hrs,
30240 min,
1814400s
Yes, it’s ex Wallaby
Yes, it’s in Australia
Yes, it’s oversea
Yes, it sounds fun to you…
But, No, at least not for me
For god sake,
No TV,
No favorite music,
No Internet,
No favorite food,
No air-con,
No bed,
No cinema,
No family…etc and the list go on n on n on n…



Supposedly I am anticipating for the trip. Really, I meant, it’s my 2nd time riding on a plane (SIA some more), and it’s Australia. I wanted to go there since young, only because that’s the only foreign country my primary school English teachers used to mention. No, not US, not German or Italy, but that’s really beside the point. The point is, everybody’s first response to my trip is “wooh, Australia, must be fun. Army is so good to you, must bring me gifts.” I understand that they meant well but they forgot that I am not there for holiday. I have to tell them the real deal for being there and all the Nos and it begins to make me feel sian. I hope it’s not that bad. Taiwan trip was fun. Anyway, since it’s just tomorrow, let’s just pray that everything goes smoothly and we all come back in one piece on 251105. I wanna come back a better person, with no regret and hard feelings with anybody. I mean, I still love the country. World peace. Read today’s paper….why can’t we looking forward to our festivals and celebrate them just like before? What’s wrong with the terrorists? Don’t they have families too? “Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know” quoted from the book [The five people you meet in heaven]

Say no more, my heart can’t break further.


I know you need a lover, not a partner.


It’s time for us to part,


Goodbye my angel, my dearest sweetheart.


It kills me to think of words to say.


No word can describe the love we shared.


First kiss, first tear, first Christmas,


All memories in my head, still so clear.


Time, I need a break.


Seriously,


Wake me up when November ends.

Looking at these photos, i realised,
Life is not as cold as i was being told.
Memories unfolded, no, they can't be sold.
But as i looked around me, i can't help but asked,
where did everybody go?

In life, we all have different goals-
Some we accomplished,
some we forgone.
But, wherever you go,
please let me know.
I may not follow, but at least,
I can answer to the moon
when he asks me so....

Chemistry ME


I'm, not yet, a man,
without any fashion sense.
Just doing the best that I can,
so thank you for being such a fan.


So this is life,
I like you but you don't like[me]
I do stupid things
and hope that you will change your mind.
Still there's something that is missing,
maybe it's what we called CHEMISTRY.


Our mother EARTH is angry,
and she's not afraid of showing it.
What message is she sending?
When are we going to get it?

I know


I know I’m not smart,
That’s why I got to work double hard.
Not to get what I want,
But what I deserve at least.
I know we don’t always
Get what we want in life.
I know it’s not something we like,
But I know it’s something we can’t rectify.
It’s like you want to sleep,
You switch off the light.
But he switches it on,
Just because he’s inside.
I know I should look at the bright side,
At least he is not making any noise.

YOU DUNNO

Feed your appetite,
you never seem to be satisfied.
Suit your way of doing things,
your views we never seem to meet.
Tell you "I LOVE YOU",
you never seem to acknowledge.
Shut you out of my life completely,
you never seem to realise....

FIRST LOVE
Sometimes i think of it and cry,
why is it so hard no matter how i try?
Worst of all, you are not by my side.
You left me standing outside.


You always say you play by the rules.
But love isn't a game, you fool.
There isn't a way to do it,
There ain't gonna be no clue.


My friends told me about your lies,
and things you are trying to hide.
I still love you that i can't deny,
Am i still the one you like?


But the day will still come,
When we look back
and see what we have done.
I promise you will still be the one
who has made my heart a broken one.



TEll me,
U're not really Leaving me
cos U will not bear to give Me sadNess
in this Hour of Silent.
TEll me,
U're not really Leaving me.
U're just punishing Me for yr freedom
stolen by my love.

250705-140805 (national day carnival)
-best period of my ns life
-so good i just wanna enjoy that n do nothing else (this explains for the long period of not updating)
-get to meet and work with SOA gd friends
-get to experience what's like to be 8-5 (sat n sun have to go back though)
-get to interact with the public
-get to see alot of exhibitions
-get alot of freebies





















I like you but you dont know,
I dont know if you like me too.
2 years have gone and we said nothing.
I hate my guts if I have any.
When will I be ready?
When will I lose my chance?
I hope you will still be there
when I ask you to be with me.
I guess fate will bring us together
If we were meant to be.

With all the junk food i eat,
I don't really feel very healthy.
Like yesterday, i had pizza hut and KFC.
It's not because of the special offers they are promoting,
I'm not going to find excuses like
"i'm young, i can still take it."
But, you know, it's book out and the least you can do
is to find something you really like to eat.
ok la, I promise I will start to eat more fruits and vege,
after all, it's not even half as bad as booking in.....

It's one thing to be stupid,
it's another to act stupid.
Both irritating,
both nerve breaking.
It's sorry to be stupid,
it's cruel to act stupid.


I don't really appreciate when people starts to play the "lawyer game" and says things like "you didn't answer my question...". For instance, i was thinking whether to buy something from a stall holder when he asked me, "boy, so do u want to buy it?". I answered, " herm, can you charge me a little lower?". He said, " You didn't answer my question. I was asking whether do u wanna buy it or not?" The minute he finished that, i walked away....empty handed. I meant if i did not want to buy the stuff, would i care to ask for a discount in the first place. The least he can do is to say no politely rather than to act stupid and ask me the same question again. He thought i was stupid or what?

What if we were living in the world where:
rainbow were from toilet bowl;
bright shining stars were from tears of crocodiles;
beautiful sunset were from garbage bag;
true love were from breasts and creatures;
new lives were from war of the world?


I need somebody to tell me "it's ok, don't worry"
I need somebody to tell me "you still have me"
I need somebody to tell me "I will be only where you will be"
I need somebody to tell me "my love is ocean-deep"
I need somebody to tell me "you are all that I need"
I need somebody to tell me "your love I will forever keep"
I need somebody to tell me "don't wake up, stay in your dream"
I need somebody to tell me "you don't have to tell, I got it"


Ocean will swallow,
the clouds' sorrow.
how can i let go,
when i wallow?

To those i have caused trouble directly or indirectly to:


We are all very different individuals
trying to live in this only world.
I fight hard not to bother
friends, let alone strangers.
But somehow or rather,
things do cork up as usual.
I won't go any futher,
just six simple words put together,
"I'm sorry, I hope I never....."

The above is a piece of note my 4 years old cousin wrote for me while i was baby sitting her and her brother last sat. I was watching them doing spelling when she came and asked for my english name. Five min later, she brought smile to my face. What she meant was actually, " I love weijie because he knows spelling and weizhen( my sis)." Of course i did correct the spelling for the word "because" but that's really beside the point. I mean, how can a 4 year old kid do that? It's only at the age of 7(primary one) when i was forced to answer "it is/was because" for all the "why" questions in english comprehension without knowing the reason why. I think this is the advantage of speaking english once the baby can even mumble "mama" n "papa". Both of them were really innocent and cute and i have had a great morning with them.


Love can be simple and yet so true,
it's how you express it, the things you do.
No need flowers or diamond too,
just a short message even a 4 year old can do.


Understand what's wrong and what's right
Do it once and do it right
Mistake made, you don't deny
learnt from it, get it right.

It's not always the good guys who win
in this society we are living in
it's a challenge of moral and wits
cant trust a person till the last minute.

WU JIAN DAO aka INTERNAL AFFAIRS

Life is so fragile and weak
dont think death is easy to cheat
a new life is what you need
that's what i learnt from the movie.


I just finished watching "final destination 2". It was an intense 90 min and i must say, that's my kind of movie. Speaking of movie, Star war was ok and easier to understand than what i was expecting, but still not sure why people are so in love with it. It's still once in a lifetime that one can watch a movie in the same cinema together with the battlion. I guessed i can let it go for once.

I'm a good guy,
but i'm not that nice.
There are some excuses i don't buy,
don't think i don't know wat you are trying to hide.


You think you can try
to play innocent and be kind.
But i can see through your eyes,
your lies and your reasons why.
For you i will not sympathize,
i will rather you go and die.


I hate the army,
with all the pushing around of duties,
you are still forced to watch movies
you are not interested in.

I really miss the times when i asked money from my mom for stuff...it's always challenging but rewarding. Now that i'm using just the allowance i got from national service, i realised that it's harder for me to get money out from my pocket compared to my mom's last time. Reason 1. My mom constantly reminds me that she has no money for me to study uni and i have to use the money i can get within the army days. Reason 2. Now i really know what "blood-sweat-money" is and i really dont wanna spent money on extra stuff other than food. Reason 3. The things that are selling now are just much more expensive than before, especially the stuff that i want. God, i just hope money can drop from heaven, but not to anywhere else other than my pocket.


I have been listening to alot of cds these few days. Surprising, i kindof like JOLin's ablum this time round. There's a lot of upbeat songs which are done quite well. Still i like FIR and natalie imbruglia ablums more. Hooked to shiver by natalie imbruglia now. Just like songs that i can relate to more.


Long weekend is going to be over, and it's back to camp again. Not complaining just because May is going and June is coming...See u soon, July!!!

It's going to be tough.
no SWeet talking,
No Expensive gift,
not Out going,
not iNteresTinG,
Not romantic,
not even funny...
But also,
no smoking,
no drinking,
no flirting,
no cheating,
no bitching,
no snoring ?!?
Would you still come with me?


BoRn To DiE
Not TO cRY
Do oR DIe
NevER HAiz....


Easier said than done

Sometimes there's no use to try so hard,
Sometimes there's no need for the rush.
Sometimes it's much more simpler than what you think,
Sometimes you just got to believe it.
Sometimes it's easier when you fall,
Sometimes you will get more.
Sometimes you don't know when is sometimes,
Sometimes it's all the time.
Sometimes....

COme and go
Be it so
Dont let go
Things yoU Know


It's hard to do
everything right
when nobody is there
by your side.


TAKE ME AWAY
to NOBODY'S HOME
Just you n me
that's MY HAPPY ENDING
DON'T TELL ME HE WASN'T
WHO KNOWS, maybe we are good TOGETHER
You dont know HOW DOES IT FEEL
to FREAK OUT, FALL TO PIECES
or be FORGOTTEN
I cant afford to let it
SLIPPED AWAY again.

I was sitting beside a stranger,
in a crowded hawker center.
She asked me :"what food i ordered?"
I asked her:"why u bothered?"
Then my mee pok came,
and her boyfriend came.
She laughed at my mee pok thinking
"you dont wanna tell me but i still know."
i laughed at her boyfriend thinking
"your boyfriend really look like mee pok."

Housefly housefly you fly so fast,
can you tell me what's the rush?
how can i tell you i love you,
when you keep turning away from my view?
Housefly housefly stay awhile,
please don't let me chase so far.


Outfield this time round, not only did i meet my regular mates, the mosquitoes, there are the houseflies too. After reading the rhyme, u might think that i am crazy in love with pests...but don't be mistaken, i am definitely not. It's just brought to my mind during one of the days in outfield when i saw two houseflies flying around each other when the rest of them landed on my hairs and hands and basically everywhere. So it's really about 2 houseflies instead of me and the housefly. I thought it's funny...what about you?
It's also one of the outfields i ate the least. Not cooking any noodles, just 2 biscuits and 5 pieces of bread plus 4 bottles of water for the 4 days. At the end of forth day, i reached camp kindof late(cos i was one of the ammo parties) and thought that i can take a bath and have myself a cup noodles but then realised that i was the COS.. Someone have to replace me in the end just because there was no other choice cos i reached camp really late and i got to take my bath and eat my noodles. Not end of story yet, that's not without a cost of course. On Friday, which is the next day, there's no one willing to take over the COS duty...and u are damn right, i am the one taking over it in the end. One thing i wanted say here, i want to help but if someone DONT NEED or DONT WANT my help, i am, in fact, happier. I'm definitely not borned for the sake of anyone.
This week, i learnt more about friendship. I learnt that friends are the ones who prevent you from getting into trouble, help you to get out of trouble and NEVER talk bad stuff about you behind you back. I got two verses quoted from the show "Desperate Housewives" which i would like to share..."Good friends support each other when they are humiliated, great friends pretended nothing happened in the first place" and "Good friends offered help in a crisis, great friends dont take no as an answer". So which is more proper? For me, it really depends which party am i? The one offering help or receiving the help...

Somepoint of my life,
i hope i can find,
one who will cry
for me, when i die.

April is here, 3 more weeks before it will be gone again. Been eating alot these 2 days, all the stuff i like, like po biah, laksa, sushi, roti prata, rojak, milk tea.....SHIOK!! Will be eating combat ration for the next 4 days but will survive. Just hope that april will end faster and smoother for me.

020405, the day avril lavigne performed live in the singapore indoor stadium. Fortunately enough, i got the "A10 seat 2" tix and enjoyed the show till it ended. I can say, it's the first and the best birthday present i gave myself so far. No fancy costume, just the same tshirt outfit and the great vocal she had, she awakened the crowd. She is really smaller in size than wat i expected but her voice is still power. It was really value for money and i have a great time. i cant wait till her next performance in singapore. Lastly, i would say....AVRIL ROX!!!

So sian...in a few hours, i will be back in camp for another 5 days before i can come back home. One thing to be contented about is that it's the end of the month, which means i'm one more month closer to ORD. Had an enjoyable long weekend and i think it's time to get back to work. Let's hope that the following week will go peacefully and i can book out feeling happy. See you.

There's this story i would like to share. Once, there's a couple who has been together for 10 years. The lady was a hair dresser and one day, she got sent to another shop as a replacement out of sudden. So there she went and was even shocked to see her boyfriend walking past that shop with another lady. Having the fact that she really love her boyfriend and already planning to marry him, she secretly went to look for the lady whom she thought was the third party. To her horror, the lady confessed that she has been with the same boyfriend for 15 years. In the end, she is the one who have been someone's third party for 10 years. What has happened to the trust between lovers? Is it too much or too little?

It was the second time i run out of camp. 11pm+ then book out. Watched ROBOts today and was in love with it. Behind the story, there's still this father n son thing, just like the show Finding Nemo.Good friday is coming, cant wait for next wk to come.

SOMETIMES, LIFE DOESNT GO YOUR WAY.
GOOD THINGS END FAST, BUT
BAD THINGS TOO.
YOU JUST NEED TO DO,
WHAT YOUR FEELINGS LEAD YOU TO.
LEARN FROM THE YESTERDAY YOU,
BE TRUE TO THE PRESENT YOU.
LIVE WITHOUT REGRET AND
NEVER TRY TO ACT......

It's been so long since i last booked out on friday evening instead of sat morning or later. But this week, it's the LUCKY week again. Everyone was so motivated to book out before 5pm that we finished butt setting and reached back to camp just on time to realise that the vehicles were not ready yet and the booking in timing on sun was not comfirmed. This caused us to wait for an hour or two to finally get out of the camp at around 7pm.
Went LOT 1 after that to meet Eugene and saw junjie on the way. Too bad, he has eaten, if not, i'll make sure he went up level 3 to eat sushi with us. There's always other time. Sushi was expensively nice but it's once in a while to pamper myself. We have a good time chatting about the atec he went through. On the way back home, we saw junwei getting off the mrt train. Then it's my turn to alight and i reached home at about 10pm, tired but happy.

Wanna take this opportunity to wish everyone Happy Valentine's Day. Pass our loves around always...

Went to auntie's home with my sis to play mahjong. We didn't go all the way just to play mahjong, trust me, we got better things to do. It's been a while since we last visited her place, and since it's the festive season and we are on holiday, why not? When we reached there, we realised there was nothing else we could do other then setting up the table and start playing. We played till 9pm when my mom started to call at interval of 10min to pester us back for dinner. We don't want to look like we are addicted to mahjong and also, my primary six cousin was throwing temper due to the fact that he was not winning, we decided to call it a day.

Back at home, my mom fetched me dinner and made sure i ate before she can go peacefully to bed. Then i called a friend to chat till 12+am and that goes my saturday. As the saying goes, good things always come to an end. Sunday is here and it's time for booking in. I finally realised the feeling of getting a you-don't-like-but-die-die-have-to-do job. And i finally get the reason why people working in the society always told me, who was a student back then, how they wish they were still studying and that studying is much better then working. I also hope that i can be a trainee all my nsf life and never go to unit. Trainee is like student and to go to unit is similar to getting a job. How i wish i get ord sooner.

My good deed: 1. I left the mahjong at my auntie's place knowing that they need it more than us. Even though i would like to have it at my place so that i can play when i want to. Self sacrificing.

It's almost a year since my last post. After re-read my past entries, i found that i have grow over the past year and life is really getting more and more interesting and exciting as well as challenging. Another thing is i really feel happy about myself is i have met alot of angels who have helped me along the way. What convince me to post again is that i realised my life is more than just the 5 posts and i wanted to read more.

So fast, four days of chinese new year celebration have passed. It has been a long time since i can stay almost a full week at home, or rather, out of camp. I just love chinese new year more and more. One of my new year resolutions is to do at least a good deed every day. I call it, "A good deed a day, keeps the devil away." Please, if you are reading this, help me think of good deeds i can do besides all the normal one like, giving out seats for the elderly. Just woke up, i am going to have my breakfast and then, maybe, continue my mahjong game with my sis and uncle and ah ma. Last night, we played till 3am and i lost $3, all to my sis. I am going to make a comeback later.
To the rest of my friends, enjoy the holiday and hope that everyone return to their own workplaces feeling refreshed and happy.