咖啡王子

Chapter 5 挣扎

“小宇，先别走，你忘了你的钱包。”
“！！！” 我的妈呀，我是听错了吧！？！ (最好是。。。)
我摸了一下口袋，好死不死，皮夹真的不在。-.-"
为了挽救我剩下仅有的一口尊严，我是否该
将错就错，假装没听见，箭步如飞地走掉？

店长，收银员，客人，所有人，
你们尽管笑我吧。

笑我这个只顾填满我心灵上空缺的冒失鬼，
笑我这个只会想太多却什么都不做的被动鬼，
笑我这个只能在自己的回忆里钻牛角尖的可怜鬼，
笑我这个只能与寂寞作朋友的失败鬼。

就别忘了，在你们的开怀大笑声中，
我是哭着的，想着，
“如果我就这样走了，你是否会带着我的皮夹，
追上来？”

“又有谁能感同身受，了解我内心的挣扎？”
“又有谁能设身处境，教导我解决的方法？”

我请寂寞告诉我。。。

TO BE CONTINUED。。。

咖啡王子

Chapter 4 回忆

“算了，我们就不要在一起。”
你说了，一脸的毫不犹豫。
以为又是一场恶作剧，还来不及反应；
你已头也不回得离去。

一天，两天，三天的过去。
时间没有把那天的一幕摸去。
以为不把它说出去，
你就还会回来这里。

我沒追究什么，
我只是还不知道为什么。
要知道答案这东西，
需要了解的人来揭晓谜底。

我没过意不去，
我只是还没把你忘记。
要知道习惯这东西，
需要时间来调理。

我没耿耿于怀，
我只是活在没有你的未来。
要知道勇气这东西，
需要适应没有你的空气。

至到答案在我手里，
至到了解不再是个问题，
至到失去你不再是可惜，
至到回忆里不再有你。

TO BE CONTINUED。。。

咖啡王子

Chapter 3 哭了

“没。。。这咖啡还是你喝吧。”
话一说完，我是想装着若无其事，潇洒地离开。
但双眼怎么都不听使唤，不想让你离开它们的视线。
潇洒始终败给了舍不得。

我还等些什么？
等你邀我和你们一起喝咖啡，
等你告诉我他只是个普通朋友，
等你再度燃起我心中对你藏有的那份渴望与饥渴，
等你叫我不要走。

等到后头又来了一位顾客，
你还是什么也没说。
心寒了一下，告诉自己说，
“一场莫名其妙的大雨，两次的偶遇，三句你的言语，够了。
林宇恒，振作点，算了。”

转身正想头也不回地离去，
突然又听见你语中还带有一点慌张，说到，
“小宇，先别走。。。”
就在这一刻，不争气的泪珠终于还是从我那不听话的双眼滑下。

TO BE CONTINUED。。。

咖啡王子

Chapter 2 讨厌

我闭起眼睛，
心想，“如果这是一场梦，
这刻也该让我醒来了吧。”
眼睛是张开了，双脚却还在原地。

回头一看，
想见的，不想见的，
都是你，还有你身旁一位我从没见过的那个他。
我还没来的及反应，
你又问到，“怎么了？”

讨厌自己总是慢半拍，
讨厌你一次又一次地给予关怀，
讨厌自己还是渴望你的关怀，
讨厌却不能让你知道。

TO BE CONTINUED。。。

090909

Little things which make the heart tingles,

The hope that they won't disappear.

Crazy couples who fall madly in love with each other,

The hope for that "happily ever after".

Wondering

Once in a while, I still wonder
When will it be the next time I see you?
What will you be doing?
Who will you be with?

Questions with no answers,
Images keep spinning in my head.
Round and round, over and over again.
How should I deal with it?
Or should I just escape?

A place away from the reality,
With no pain or misery,
Just you and I, back to the beginning.
The first smile and the first kiss,
Oh, how nice would that be!

咖啡王子

Chapter 1 偶遇

刚好的是那天大雨后的相遇，
不知是不是天气的关系，
四目交集的我们就僵在那儿。
“嘿，去哪儿？” 狼狈的我说了。
你只是回答，“小心路滑。”

失落的心情带着双脚，
不想回家。
走着走着，
也就走到我们以前常到的那家STARBUCKS。

点了杯咖啡，
才发现自己不喝咖啡。(以前也都是为你点的)
正当我拼命得从皮夹挖出零钱，
觉得又是个不可思议的一天，
后头传来了温暖又熟悉的声音说到，“算我的。”


TO BE CONTINUED。。。

Gardenia - Mandy Moore

1. IA at Sony (Done)

2. Open Water Diving Course (Done)

3. Driving practical (Proceeding)

4. Army Half Marathon (training in progress)


It's been good getting to know me more,

It's good to know that I could be so much more.

From your voice, I see hope,

And the faith you have in me.

Thank you for guiding me along the way.

You Can

You can hold my hand and tell me how much you missed him,
I know it’s my hand you are holding.

You can have my heart and break it,
It belongs to you already.

You can leave me with my vulnerability,
It feeds on nothing.

You can do it over and over again,
I will come running back when you need me.

One Month

When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Wanna be with me but youre so scared
And I dont know what to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know that,Times wont change my love
And I, cant do nothing to keep you

Oh, Ill give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know,that I cant change my love
Take my love all through the night

As the hours pass away
You think that love aint here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you dont give doubt a moments rest
You dream the future and, all you see is dark
Listen to your heart, baby,
The truth will set sparks

Now Ill give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know, that I cant change my love
Take my love all through the night

Now Ill give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that time wont change my love
Take my love all through the night

Oh, Ill give my love
oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I cant change my love
Take my love all through the night

The Happy Feeling

I think I am happy.
I should be.
I mean, even the sky is smiling at me.
Under the bright sun,
Everyone looks especially pretty.
And the breeze,
It makes me kindof light and trouble-free.

Kindof wanna share more with my family.
Kindof wanna be at places my friends wanna be.
Kindof wanna give my love one the prefect gift.
Kindof wanna hug every stranger I see.

And suddenly, I feel safe and peace.
Suddenly, I can be MR Anybody.
Suddenly, time passes by so quickly.
Suddenly, the world is not so big.

Is this the feeling you get when you are happy?

2009 already?

It’s always about the time
When I give you my very best,
You take it but let it go the very next second,
Like you don’t even care how I feel.

I learnt to shut my mouth and not ask why,
Explanations can only lead to more lies.
I know to love you means I have to cope.
The question is how long before my head explores.

One-sided relationships, I have enough.
Most of the time, I was alone by myself.
You played me round and round,
Like a clown to always make you smile.

Now, it’s only fair for me to get what I want.
Without losing the self-respect I barely left,
I will fake it like I’m happy with your decision
rather than to beg for your forgiveness.

Ready To Commit

Today, again, we didn’t chat.
I thought that’s it, you don’t want me back.
I have no reason to ask you to forget,
Or to forgive the mistake I have made.

I promised to wait.
Afterall, it’s my decision; I got no one to blame.
Till I find another smile on your face,
Tomorrow is gonna be another long, long day.

Because I still never stop thinking about you.
Because you never fail to remind me you're the victim and I’m the culprit.
Because it’s exhausting to bring you back to the beginning when we met.
Because I made a foolish choice, I got to live with that.

That time I ran away cos I’m not ready.
Now I will wait for you to be ready.

Emptiness

It’s creepy
It’s silence
It’s helpless.
It’s frustrating.
It’s devastating.
It’s coming over me.
It’s haunting me bit by bit.

I need a job. Period.

Under Pressure

There's always times like this,
when I feel the need to escape,
when life is a bully I can't beat,
when I'm so afraid of losing.

Losing my self esteem,
losing the hope to dream,
losing the touch of reality,
losing the ability to compete.

There's always times like this,
when I am caught in between.
I don't want to be a victim,
nor I want to hurt anybody.

I just need to be with myself,
calm down and sort things out.
You can't help me,
so don't try to find out.

Guess What? (Get hooked to Life)

Only the best deserves the best,
That’s how the world works fair.
Give more, take less,
That’s how you will gain respect.

Live now, worry tomorrow,
Since it will be a better day.
The ability to believe is all it takes,
Well, at least that’s what people say.

Never try, never know,
And that’s what I followed.
Threw aside what I’m good at,
Got hooked to what I don’t.

Yet life is still a mist,
I never know what I have missed.
All I have is my name,
All I know is I can be better than this.

Just Dance

It’s just the start of the ride,
And no one can see the end.
I’m gonna loosen up,
Before losing myself in this mess.
Forget what the rest have to say,
Quit asking about the plan.
Get into the music,
Just dance…

LIVE.LIFE.DO.STUPID_THINGS

Sometimes life can be very lonely,
So much so it makes you do stupid things.
Things you thought might bring you some company,
Mistakes you are afraid you might make again.

Still you do them anyway,
And time and again, the cycle will drag you in.
Like the lottery tickets you keep buying,
Even though there’s no sign of winning.

So you fight like you never win before,
You fall like you never been hurt before,
You love like you never bleed before.
You cry like you never been loved before.

Sometimes life can be very lonely,
So much so it makes you do stupid things.

Help Me

It started off with the time,
When we didn’t know what we were doing.
Fooling around without a clue.
And for a while, it’s actually fun.
We tried to stick to it,
Hold on to it as long as we could.
But too bad, change is the only constant we can get to.

Then it’s everything we begin to define.
The relationship, the dates and the gifts,
And the dates you forgot to give.
How much time we wasted on asking, “how much you love me?”
And the many sleepless nights,
Without you by my side,
Thinking you could be with anybody.

We forgot the peace from believing what you see,
The satisfaction we can get from freedom,
The happiness from our blessed innocence, and
The respect from our self-righteousness.

If it’s my responsibility to let you leave,
Let me know even though it’s the last thing I bear to give.

Call me Crazy

You gave me a kiss on my cheek
And I stick with you forever.
Yah, I’m that foolish,
And won’t life be a lot easier,
If that were to work for the other party.

No lying, no cheating, no apologize
In many years to come, just you and me,
And the butterflies in our stomachs
Will get to taste our secrets along the journey.

And we don’t even need to get married.
A cert, it can’t possibly prove anything.
But your kiss,
For your kiss, I can do anything,
Even if forever is what it means.

Forever may be a dream,
But at least it’s something sweet.

Get a grip

It’s not anger I’m feeling,
Cos it would mean I might care even abit.
But just to make it clear so it won’t hurt anybody.
I’m not someone you wanna mess with.

I won’t say I’m sorry even when I’m wrong,
I won’t apologise for being strong.
It’s too bad if you think I’m hard to get along,
I’m entitled to have an individuality of my own.

And don’t assume that I’m cold,
When I have my feelings and thoughts under control.
And please don’t assume that I’m a lone,
You are just not invited to my parties, that’s all.

If you are afraid of falling,
Get a grip.

Maryland - Vonda Shepard

I've been thinking
I've been thinking I've been thinking too much.
I just want to live now for a little while.
And cast my dreams to the wind
Don't wanna wonder
Don't wanna wonder what it's all about
I'm just working for a living singing with my friends
As I cast my dreams to the wind

Maryland I'm coming home
Never worry about what I did wrong.
And that I'll never be what my daddy wanted me to be
and I'llnever see what my mama's dreams were
But I will sing
La la la la la la la la...

I wanna fly
I wanna fly down the highway to my home away from home.
This funky funky club on Fairfax Avenue to see you.
I'll never give up
Because what is there to give up anyway?
I'm just working for a living working for my pay
In Maryland it's raining somewhere in some cafe.

我要我爱自己

当我的用心不受肯定，
当寻找又遇到了瓶颈，
当我的努力回到原地，
当一切只能听天由命。

当家人都把我给放弃，
当朋友的话不能相信，
当敌人不再把我当假想敌，
当对我好的人都别有居心。

当天空都布满乌云，
当天地人不合在一起，
当黑白不再分明，
当事实叫人身不由己。

当冷嘲热讽一直在我身上淋，
当伤口不只是表皮，
当爱失去原本的意义，
当可怜不再得到同情。

Enough is enough

You took a piece of me,
The piece I’m not ready to give.
But you took it anyway,
Leaving me to find my way back.

And yet I’m still the selfish one,
The one to get blamed all the time.
Now it looks like you are the only one having fun,
I’m finally ready to say I have had enough.

Enough of your excuses and complaints,
Mine is never let to be shared.
Enough of your face,
You are no longer my taste.
Enough of asking me over your place
Just to be a sex toy for you to play.
Enough of all the past and yesterday,
You are no longer what you said.

When enough is too much to take,
I rest my case.

Challenges

The mornings you tried to drag yourself out of bed.

The days when giving up is not an option.

The boss who doesn’t appreciate individuality.

The part before the fairy tale ending.

The pain which brings you back to reality.

The struggle between moral and money.

In the end, it’s the things which drive you forward.

Do I still love my life?

我想我是真的有点累了。。。(不能放弃)


Nobody says thing’s going to be easy.
And they, they make it hard on purpose.
So that by the end of everything,
You will remember its worth,
And the reasons why you succeed.

Chasing for something that might not even exist

Soon after the clock stop ticking,
the world stop spinning,
we shall know what forever really means…
But before that happens, I’m just glad you are where I’m at.

Cos the truth can stink,
Dreams can be left hanging
with our wounds cut so deep.
Nobody care if we would survive,
They laugh to fill the void they had.

Even so, you said a happy theme song a day,
That’s all you need.
I wish my life could be that easy,
Then “forever” would be more desirable for me.

And yet I thought we were all put onto this world for a purpose.
And it happens that yours is to find what’s mine.
You are the one I can’t live without,
And I am thankful you feel the same.

I will be, at that place somewhere over the rainbow, only with you.
That’s the pact we have made before we sealed the deal.:)

Island In The Sun

hip hip
hip hip
hip hip
hip hip

When you're on a holiday
You can't find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And I wanna feel it too

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

hip hip
hip hip

When you're on a golden sea
You don't need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

hip hip
hip hip
hip hip

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad any more

Hip Hip

We'll never feel bad anymore
(hip hip)
(hip hip)
No no
(hip hip)
(hip hip)
We'll never feel bad anymore
(hip hip)
on an island in the sun

Book of Days

This song never fails to bring me back the memories of good old days. Years ago, a sunny afternoon at the old chapel of Presbyterian High School, guests, teachers, students, seniors all waiting in ceremony hall. The song started playing, and at exactly 1min 02s (we did our rehearsals well), the main door opened and one by one, in came the newly prefects. Yes, it’s the Prefect Investiture Ceremony. It’s the day when probational prefects get to be recognized as the real prefects after the badge handling ritual. Well then, true enough, real shit came just right at the same time. But the thing is, till now, I have never walked in a room with so much pride in me like I was at that point of time. Maybe the music helped a little, or maybe it’s because I was much smaller in size then and with the coat and leather shoes, I couldn’t literately feel my feet moving, but I swear I thought I was flowing down the aisle.

Ever since then, whenever I feel despair or a failure, it helps if I were to listen to this song and the emptiness in me just became less empty. I got filled up with strength and power again. I can do better. I want to get the flowing feeling again. (We all need to have something to hold on to sometimes, don’t we?) The best part is, I will want to have my friends experiencing it with me. I wish they can know what I am really talking about just because it’s something good. But till then, I hope they can settle with this wonderful song.

Time - It’s a pretty dumb thing

Somebody has to be "lonely" for the word to exist.
If it were not you, then it would be me.
Emptiness gives room for silence,
For some reasons, it’s a cool experience.

The truth is, in life, you get lost and lose sometimes.
Your friends, your hopes and dreams,
They left you to spend alone with your time.
And before you know it, you are actually enjoying it.

Cos time is a pretty dumb thing,
It lets you have a peace of mind.
Cos time is a pretty dumb thing,
It lets you restore your wounded pride.
Cos time is a pretty dumb thing,
It lets you stick with it cos you have no choice.
Cos time is a pretty dumb thing,
It lets you do anything with it cos it has no choice.

It’s ok to be lonely rather than busy and if anyone asks,
“I have got time.”

The Thing About Jane Spring

La la la,

I finished a book,

I finished a book,

I finished a book,

in 3 days.

I finished a book,

I finished a book,

I finished a book!!!

la la la...

It's funny,

It's good,

It's sweet,

And I finished it...

La, la, la...

I'm happy...

Oops!...I Did It Again

First of all, I must say, I am really pleased with my results. My late nights in NTU did pay off. As usual, I managed to clear all the modules (abit of luck) but what really made me so proud that I have to post it here is that finally, for the first time, I see no ‘C’…All As and Bs, mostly B+(definitely luck). But you got to be happy for me if you have seen how I studied. My roomie would know. Of course, I have to thank my tutors and friends who have blessed and helped me along the way. I still need them for the next few sems to keep up the grades and the ultimate goal: Up Up the GPA…But for now, a new haircut for the New Year.
Cheers...

Some

My favourite word at the moment : "Some". And words which have it with - Someone, Sometimes, Something, Somewhere...etc. Like they say, too much of anything is bad for you. Sometimes, just be glad that you have something with someone somewhere. 2007 is ending soon and this year, I lost some and gain some. But, Isn't life something like that...

A trip down to IMM and we said...

'Halleluyah'. First it was the shuttle bus, then the building itself. Guessed the rain didn’t kill the people’s shopping spirit any bit. It’s been ages since I last shopped with my mom. Needless to say, photo taking is definitely at the top of our shopping list.

Me with A Reindeer-Wannabe

Got myself a pair of black jeans to make the day's squeezing worthwhile. Haha...We got all the wrong reasons for buying new stuff, don't we? Well, that would be the christmas spirit I guessed...

Sungei Gedong it is!!!

So it's 434 SAR for me, together with most of the Falcon and Glory Specalists I see. I hope it's a gd thing with the disbandment. I guess I shan't complain until my first ICT which the CO, Major Chin I think, said should be on 16-28 June 08. Till then, I will be crossing my fingers and hoping I will be in good company.

蕭敬騰



He is good, so good that made me want to save him here. I don't have to, but I want...

True Colors...

Took an online quiz and found out that I'm actually Yellow...The first thing which came into my mind is, "yellow, yellow, dirrty fellow". Ya, which is also what my friends called me during my days in Jiemin Primary School. If you wonder why, it's only because I belonged to the "Yellow House" at that time. It was so so so so long ago...Anyhow, more on the quiz...

The color of brightness and sunshine - you sure know how to add color to someones life! A primary color, the color of sun, life and happiness - you sure do live a wonderful life and possess the unique ability to brighten anyones day with a mere touch. The color of royalty, smileys and happiness - be proud of being Yellow!

This what I'm saying...

"Happily Ever After"...Overrated???

Looking at the days ahead,
It’s so sunny and great.
Suddenly, I feel not equipped,
ready to enjoy what I have.

You see, for me, it had always been about the chase,
Wanting the stuff I couldn’t get.
Even though the trips and falls,
It’s less painful this way.

Cos what’s so desirable about finally getting what you wanted?
You cling on tightly to “happily ever after”,
So afraid that any small change
will drive your prince charming away.
And so you stand still and wait,
For him to eventually get sick
and not walk away.

I guess it’s a different ball game altogether.
I guess relationship is nothing without issues and complications.
I guess faith is nothing without courage.
I guess tomorrow is nothing without today.

You make me want to take the first step.

You are whatever “happily ever after” means.

Let's get Crazy...

What is love exactly? Is it the feeling we get when we cuddled? Is it really in the air? Is it larger than life? Is it worth the pain? And how is it measured? Is it by the amount of sweet-talking and gifts? By the things we do together? The way we kissed? Or is it just about every little thing? We don’t know its definition but still, the truth is, we all want to be madly in love, to be able to feel the passion and the heat. So much so that we do crazy, stupid things –to find it, get it, and escape it until we meet our so-called “True love”. The one whom you would say “you jump, I jump”, “I promise you anything” to, and then…the crazy stuff start again. What I am trying to say is, there is a reason why we live to love, even though we don’t understand the exact mechanism of it. We are borned with it, just like we know how to breathe. And hey, as for the crazy things, if you haven’t noticed, it’s a crazy world we are living in and crazy world, well, is meant for crazy you and crazy me.

For those who care enough, I am not dead... at least not yet. It’s just that it’s that time of the year again. Jia you to everyone and try not to get drowned by piles of notes and tutorials. Hope to see all the smiling faces in 2 weeks time…

At a junction, we met.
For a while, we decided to walk together before you stopped.
I turned around only to realize that you were gone.

The dating game, or so we called it, we all have gone through before.
I have had my fair share to get a taste on how it works.

That there’s a reason for you to stop.
That there’s no need to find you when you were gone.
That you will yell for me if you, too, want me to stop.
That the route is still long,
That I should just continue the walk.

That maybe on another junction, on each other, again, we will knock.
Then maybe that will be another chance we got.
Or maybe it’s like what we always console ourselves and each other,
That the right person will be waiting for us at the right spot.

Results for YR 2 Sem1 quizzes so far…

Thermodynamic 80%
Forensic science 80%
Kinematics 73%
Tech Com proposal A-
Lab report B+

So I worked my ass off for the round 1 quiz to get those grades above. It’s still not good enough when considering the fact that there are probably a few thousands of the rest who got full marks. Let’s just hope that my remaining 3 quizzes and project presentation will score better. But meanwhile, I am really hoping the school will allocate me a room in any hall to stay for the exam period in nov 07 and the rest of my Yr2. I’m crossing my fingers and praying hard. Wish me luck...

Mid Autumn Festival


Celebrating festivals is the best reason for family members to get together.
The full moon and candles lights are just bonuses.
We talked about our future plans and how we can help one another.
A simple night can be full of surprises.

For the little kids, they still have their time to talk rubbish,
For their parents, they should stop worrying just about everything,
For the pet lovers, they have to teach their animals not to eat candles,
For the neighbours, they should stop being busybodies and start to mind their own businesses.

The night ended with burnt lanterns and smelly ashes.
No one mention anything about the beautiful Chang’E,
Or the rabbit that still might be with her,
Or how, in the next morning, the cleaners will suffer.

“至少我都会‘下面’给他吃…”

This must be the best joke I have heard in this year. Bravo la, 利菁…

Playing with fate

In life, there will be some people you don’t wish to see.
But still, fate plays with you like your worst enemy.
So now, that’s the situation I’m in.
That person is standing right in front of me.

And here’s the thing so as to speak,
It’s not like I hate him or anything.
I guess I’m also the one he doesn’t want to see,
So why make each other’s day so unhappy?

My plan is, I try to be nice.
I mean, it’s not that hard to smile and say hi.
It doesn’t even matter if he doesn’t reply.
It will just save me from saying goodbye.

Call me being fake or even a hypocrite,
I’m doing the right thing, that’s what my mother will say.
She insists on telling me to keep my friends close but my enemies closer.
“No thanks”, I told her.

GIMME MORE ...



More promo clips while counting down the days to sep 27 pls... Haha...Meanwhile, I have just finished my lab report and realised that quizs are starting next wk... must STUDY MORE...

FRIENDS -

they are the ones who stop you from getting into trouble and not those who tell others to watch.

This, I always forget... maybe it's due to "Happy tree friends".

Hairspray

It’s definitely a movie for the underdogs. If ugly were the new beauty, this movie surely takes this saying to a new level, in it’s musical way. When it comes to movies, personally, I love surprises, and I mean the good kind. And I have to say, this show is full of it. At first, I thought it’s just another teen musical flick and so, only wanted to catch Hairspray just for the fact that Michelle Pfeiffer is in it cos it’s been so long since I last saw her on the big screen. But after watching it, I felt good and I’m thinking to watch for a second time now.

Back to one of my fav Hollywood actresses, as usually, she looked gorgeous and she actually sang in the movie. I was SURPRISED. Haha… And of course, all “Ally-mcbeal” fans should know that James Marsden is a good singer and you can see him, not only sings, but doing his moves in Hairspray as well. Last but not least, there is the lady’s choice, Zac Efron, and Brittany Snow to make the teen flick complete.

As for why I said this is the movie for the underdogs, those who watched it should know jolly well. And for those who haven’t watched it, you should go buy a ticket to find out for yourself. I don’t wanna give too much details away and kill the surprises. Cheers…

Wake me up when September ends....




It's official!!! The big date is 27th September 2007. I'm keeping my mind open as new characters come and old ones go...But I'm sure it's going to be all good, I mean...seriously...

My new toy


It’s what I have been busying with for the past 3 weeks. It’s big and hot and the best part is, it’s free of charge. Training is needed to prevent the user from getting hurt by it and it’s better to play it in groups if you get what I meant. Finally, I managed to get some pics of it. Let me now present to you my new toy: Stream power plant.

The various components are:

The boiler which turn water to steam

Steam pass to the superheater to become superheated vapor

finally to the steam turbine to the generator to produce electricity

Some readings to obtain for calculations

According to the lab tech who bought the power plant, any part of the component can easily cost up to a few million dollars. But for us, MAE students in ntu, it's free. For a geeky student like me, it's a good thing.

I’m sorry…I’m sorry that some days, I just feel like renting an old, sad, classic movie and watched it alone at home. I know, I already watched it over a million times and I knew that storyline whereby the girl cried, with all the stuff he had left behind, while asking why he is not coming back tonight.
And I know, I know it’s just a movie. I’m sorry, but I just like to get into the mood, to let my heart squeeze a little bit, to feel or even cry a little. All because life moves so fast, everyone moves too fast, but I’m not over it yet. I’m not ready to move on…I’m sorry.

Corrinne May knows best


Not long ago (also not really recently), I asked my friends and the people around me this question: “How is it possible for one to get natural HIGH?” Unfortunately, I didn’t manage to get a satisfying answer from anyone, until I caught this song on the radio. “Something about you” by Corrinne May. I’m enlightened but, as you know, one question leads to another, so Where are you?... ( If you get what I meant)

默契 = Ecstasy

儿时就玩在一起，
渐渐了解彼此的个性。
我知道你不说的秘密，
你清楚我不高兴会到哪里。

我感冒，你也在流鼻涕，
甚至懂我几时会放屁。
喜欢的音乐第一个告诉你，
只因为我知道你也爱听。

时间没有拉远我们的距离，
因为说好永远在一起。
争吵就帮彼此擦干泪滴。
哭后，不好的都忘记。

朋友，默契是你给我的Ecstasy。
喜欢的地方，我们一起去。
我不想说的，你都会不提。
讨厌的东西，还好你也不会把它理。

爱人不如一位好知己，
我的知己就是你。

PS: 默契 - 1. 交往;密切關係, 2. 和諧一致

Ecstasy - produces intensely pleasurable effects – including an enhanced sense of self- confidence and energy. Effects include feelings of peacefulness, acceptance and empathy.

A lot...


A lot of good habits too hard to keep
A lot of good friends too hard to meet
A lot of good deeds too hard to commit
A lot of good stories too hard to believe

A lot of good games too hard to win
A lot of good nights too hard to sleep
A lot of good songs too hard to sing
A lot of good dreams too hard to live

A lot of good results too hard to beat
A lot of good shoes too hard to fit
A lot of good veges too hard to eat
A lot of good choices too hard to pick

爱的巧克力...


Baby 是你，我的 Honey
让我心情，永远开心。
只要能和你在一起，
做什么，我都答应。

Baby 是你，不要怀疑。
没有别人，你是唯一。
你要的每一样东西，
做什么，我都答应。

你说的每一句话我都爱听，
你每一个笑容我都珍惜。
台风，下雨不敌你一颗泪滴。
永远记得你爱吃的巧克力。

Family Potrait

Was at my cousin (chuyan)'s place when my mom decided to take a few photos of ourselves... Pics really do mean a thousand words (said or unsaid) when it comes to family. Here we are...

Mom n Chuyan

Mom and I

Chuyan and I

Chuyan and I making faces

You know honeymoon is over when...

your new school timetable is up!!! kindof sad but I must say I did enjoy my 3 months break, even for the fact that I have to go back to school 3 times a week, in the first month, for my psychology classes. Compared to last year, I am having alittle less anticipation now maybe because I'm not "new bird" anymore. But still, there are stuff to get used to, for example, prepare for lectures and quizs, doing tutorials and REALLY STUDY for a BETTER GPA. Yah, tell me about it...

My face on edveNTUre?!?


One of my China friends just spotted my face on edveNTUre website and asked me to log in to see for myself. I am not 100% sure if it’s me, due to the size of the pic but I do see some similarities there. But you know what, I trust my China friends since they are all so smart and cautious and take every small single detail so ever carefully. Here is the pic and I will let you be the judge.

My first attempt at cooking: Fried Rice


After watching “大小爱吃”, I am somehow convinced/tricked into believing that cooking isn’t really a difficult task. So I decide to cook my own lunch today but the only ingredients I can found in my fringe are some cabbage, lean meat and leftover rice. And that decides my dish to be …Fried Rice.

It’s really my first try in cooking and I didn’t really think of posting an entry about it. So I didn’t take the pics of the prepared ingredients which I washed and sliced and fried. However, after tasting it, I decided to write about my successful attempt and took a pic of the done dish. I’m so proud of myself, so much so that more attempts will be coming up (I hope). Hahaha…



The end result: (Believe it or not?) A delicious lunch and a satisfied customer

Heroes Parody...


It's supposed to be a good show and then you have this...



And of course if someone were to do it, no one does it better than Madtv. It's a lazy saturday afternoon but it's good to, at least, exercise our cheek muscles.

Talking about days of our lives…



With all the army things going on right now (who says anything about LHY? Who? Who?) and the 9pm drama which is showing on channel 8 now, remind me of my army days. So this morning, I went to flip the pages of my journal I wrote in camp and came across the entry I now still find it quite funny when I rethink of it. Here it goes…

060105 (Thurs)

-Don’t be lazy!!! Must always wake up for breakfast…It’s the right thing to do, if not (before), CSM gives EXTRAS…
-B4 SOC, or other exercise, do equipment check! It’s not the men’s fault to forget stuff, it’s commanders’ fault not doing their duties to ensure.
-Commanders Vs High creditable Men
-Don’t wait 4 things to happen. Initiative…
-Don’t always treat men like friends. Know what’s the right time.
-Sispec’s Specialist Creed. Work according to that.
“I am the Specialist of Singapore Army,
With pride I lead,
I excel in my specialist field,
I ensure the discipline of my soldier and readiness of their equipment,
I will overcome adversity with my fighting spirit,
I will defend Singapore with my life.”
-Commanders do your jobs. Punish the men if necessary. Don’t wait for PS or PC to punish. If not, then you are not doing your job.

End

Thinking back, I guessed we are all trying to learn to do the right things. Failure is not a bad thing if it made us a better person. The funny thing is, most of the words in that entry came from an officer whom I slowly lost respect to as time went by. Still I wish him all the best and ORD is still the best thing which has happened to me so far.

Instant Noodles...


Me: Er…do u know the correct way of cooking instant noodles?

Grandma: What’s wrong?

Me: Just that it’s healthier to change the boiling water after the noodles is cooked.

Grandma: Why?

Me: To remove the wax.

Grandma: Ghosts also eat candles, it’s time to get used to wax.

What makes you so sure that you will wake up from your sleep?


So my friends and I was chatting the other day.

Lazy bum (LB): “Woh, weijie, you still on holiday right? So good, can stay up late and sleep like nobody’s business. How I wish I can sleep away my Monday blues and never need to wake up for work.”

Me: “What makes you so sure you will wake up from your sleep?”

LB (pause for awhile): “Come on lah, my 10 alarm clocks are not toys I put in my room for fun. And setting them every night before I sleep is not a hobby I enjoy. They, of course, have to wake me up.”

Opps...I guessed she was pissed maybe because she was looking for some comfort and not another question from me.

Another lazy bum (ALB): “Besides, we still have our secret weapon, which is, our mom. She will never let us have the chance of skipping our ‘delicious’ breakfast prepared by her.”

Me: “But that’s all provided that you are able to wake up right? What if you really sleep and never wake up? How your brain tells your eyes to open and body to start engine again?”

Marcus AKA The 4D guy: “For me, it’s the calling. For example, I had this dream last night. It’s about 4 chickens laying 5 eggs. 4-7-5-0… Woh, I have to go buy this number. Thanks for remaining me buddy.” And off he went.

Me: “…”

LB: “LoL, I got to go too. Lunch hour is over. Talk to you later. Bye.”

ALB: “ Haha… me too. And don’t think so much, weijie. See you.”

Haven’t really gotten my answer, I proceed to ask a few others…

A maid: “I never sleep. I just close my eyes for 2 hours. Mom and Sir want me to go market buy breakfast. If not, they send me home, back to Indonesia.”

A+ Scholar: “You see, it’s the habit we have since we were born. Of course, babies need more sleeps to let their brains develop and rest, but still, it’s their inner ability to cry and wake up for food and respond to the outer environment. That’s why, for those unconscious patients in hospitals, the longer they sleep, the less likely chance they will wake up….”

A lawyer: “Time is money. Sleep is no money. I love money. I live for money. Talk some more, I need you to give me money.”

An old man in the park (smile): “Are you talking to me? Haha…you good boy…”

A primary school student: “Cannot be late for school. Teacher will scold scold. I must do homework and be a good student then my mommy will buy for me presents.”

A bimbo: “I sleep so I can have no eye bag and stay pretty. Why wake up? Haha…I haven’t think about that.”

Last but not least,

A little girl named ally: “whatever!?!”

If there’s reincarnation, are you still scared of death?


It’s like God gave you a new ticket
To return to earth, to live again.
Time and situations may change,
But memories stay the same.

It brings a new way to how people connect.
Your family was mine beforehand.
I may be only four,
But I can show you that I lived before.

I still remember your grandpa’s name.
In my past, we were friends.
He died a year before Johnny was born.
At least that’s the name I now called.

For every death, there’s always a reborn.
As unbelievable as it may sound, it’s not.
God can do what Science cannot.
Belief is what we have got.

If there’s reincarnation,
Are you still scared of death?

Heroes : Rogue Wave- Eyes




The show and song I am hooked to right now.
Here's my version,

In my mind


Called you on your phone.
A guy picked up and told me you were not at home.

Well I didn’t know if it’s true,
There’s nothing I could do,
I putted down the phone,
But one thing I’m sure is you’re in my mind,
In my mind, in my mind…

Where’ve you gone this time?
It’s been 3 months and look at what you have done.

Winter is here,
It’s coming a new year.
You disappeared,
But one thing I’m sure is you’re in my mind,
In my mind, in my mind…

You are not me


My life has its perks and lousy times.
Still, it’s up to no one but me to define.
So quit saying I’m the champion when I rock,
Quit saying I’m fine when I’m not.

Don’t apologize cos I won’t die without.
I will find my own way, I don’t need your help.
Don’t cry, I hate it when you get loud.
Plus the fact that my mom can fake it better
Without making any sound.

Don’t try to find me, don’t even try to call.
Haven’t you noticed, you are not wanted anymore.
Go be someone else’s thorn,
Go find someone else to play along.

Everyone wishes…


Everyone wishes to have super powers,
The ability to be invisible,
To fly, to predict the future,
To prevent from getting hurt.

Everyone wishes to be super heroes,
To be the one in control,
To be in the know,
To be able to tell your love ones to stay out of danger and where to go.

Everyone wishes to be super natural,
To have a mission to save the world,
To at least come out with something to make life easier,
To be that someone special.

Everyone wishes for God to be a little biased,
To make each of us a little stronger.
The rules stay the same,
We are always the winners.

Are You Your Birthday?


Honestly speaking, at the age of 22, I'm still constantly trying to find out about myself, what sort of person I really am. Nevertheless, I'm one who never believe in doing the online quizs to see which type of kisser I am or what my underwears say about me. The truth is, I find the questions too idealistic and of course, I know, they are usually done by those who really have nothing better to do and therefore, shouldn't be looked upon too seriously. Then I came across this website the other day and found it to be quite accurate. The good thing is you don't have to answer any question but the bad thing is it's in chinese. Here it goes:


4月22日 計劃工程師

4月22日出生的人對于 具組織和建設本質的活動相當積極，其範圍不只是抽象的思想體系，還包括實際物質方面的建設。他們很擅長組織並經營家庭、餐廳、學校或任何社會團體，能使它 們正常地運作。矛盾的是，這些人並不特別愛交際，反而比較喜歡獨來獨往。他們大多是安安靜靜的，不太喜歡吸引別人的注意力。這天出生的人很懂得以輕松的方 式來完成艱苦任務的秘訣，而這種組織各種盛大集會的超強本領，遲早都會顯露出來的，就算沒能在職場上嶄露頭角，而只是運用在家庭聚會、開生日或結婚周年派 對這類的小場面中，只要是值得付出的，都能讓他們感到滿足和刺激。話說回來，4月22日出生的人如果不將才能發揮在商場上，那還真是浪費。有時候他們的組 織技巧很強，但有時會因為與上司的意見不合而感到心灰意冷，例如，他們可能會被指派去成立並經營一家別人名下的公司，卻在做得有聲有色之後，才發現老板太 過吹毛求疵或固執己見。諸如此類令人氣餒、沮喪的情形，常使他們寧可掛冠求去。從另一方面來說，4月22日出生的人和工作伙伴之間卻很少出問題。而在他們 摩下工作的人，也會很敬重這位上司的能力、實事求是的精神，以及豐富的人情味。不論體格壯碩與否，他們那威嚴的儀態常常是通往成功的重要因素。 4月22日出生的人最大的挑戰，在于控制自己的權力欲望。這些人當中發展得較好的，會表現得非常謙虛，既不逞能，也不驕傲；但發展得不夠好的人，則可能太 過專權，對人的態度也不夠寬容，而且常常令人難以更。這一天出生的人必須切記，應該公平、公正的運用他們發號施令的能力。雖然人世間可能會被財富和權貴人 士所眩惑，但不該全接受那些人的價值標準；而應該在研究、學習的技巧後，拒絕采用其中具破壞性的、不和諧的社會價值標準。 4月22日出生的人一旦建立了家庭、公司或組織後，每隔一段時間便會檢討它的發展是否達到自己所預期的理想。由于具有這樣的意識，他們可能會面臨一項大挑 戰，即是否要依照原訂的路線，繼續執行計劃；或是在某些重要的方面作修正；還是干脆放棄，改朝更有價值、更具意義的方向而努力。對這樣的人來說，他們通常 不知道何時該辭職，以及怎麼辭職，而且還可能因此引起精神上的痛苦和焦慮呢！此時他們必須要傾听自己內心的聲音。除此之外，為了避免被物質所奴投，這天出 生的人在精神層面上發展就顯得特別重要。

幸运数字和守护星 4月22日出生的人會受到數字4（2+2=4）以及天王星的影響。天王星代表的是古怪而且脾氣暴躁，因為這顆行星受到火星（牡羊座的主宰行星）和金星（金 牛座的主宰行星）的影響。4月22日出生的人在運用權力時，必須留意避免利用性或魅力，去達到控制別人的目的。受數字4支配的人，對人對事都有獨特的方法 和見解。由于他們常采取少數人的觀點，加上充滿自信，所以有時不免會招來敵意，樹立無數躲在暗處的敵人。此外22是雙數，因此4月22日出生的人經常會對 成雙成對的事物感興趣，例如雙胞胎、巧合的事情和對稱性等等。

健康 雖然在4月22日出生的人擁有一副說說、唱唱的好嗓子，但是他們卻可能會有頸部和喉嚨方面的健康問題。究竟是要一展這個好嗓音的天賦呢？還是要承受因其所 帶來的問題呢？這就得好好權衡一下了。對4月22日出生的人來說，性是非常重要的。他們可能對性十分著迷，也可能把它升華成各種不同的感官享樂形式，例 如，給人按摩或被人按摩，都能使這天出生的人產生一種特殊的快感。另外，當他們待在廚房時，都會感到非常快樂，因此應該盡可能讓自己悠游于品嘗和實驗美食 佳肴的天地中。適度的運動有助于對抗體重的增加，但是要避免運動過度。

建议

塔罗牌 大秘儀塔羅牌的第22張是“愚者”。圖案是一個人快活地站在懸崖邊。有的解釋是他十分愚蠢，缺乏理性判斷的能力；有的則指出他們極端崇尚精神層面，不在乎 現實。總的來說就是憑直覺行事、沒有描繪和抵抗的能力；同時，也代表了愚蠢、沖動和虛無。不過他們之中較成熟的，則會從生命的歷練中學取經驗，然後成為自 己理想中的人。

静思语 在黑暗中看事物，看不清楚，那麼就用心來感受吧。

优点 組織力強、實事求是、相貌威嚴。

缺点 不易相處、崇尚物質。

Last night's daydreaming...


Playing ball, wasting time,
Trying to get you out my mind.
But in my room I still find,
The scent of your perfume you left behind.

My mom once told me this,
“Good-flower-no-scare-bees-don’t-visit”.
But I never understand why they always leave
After they got their honey.

There has been time like this,
You said it’s because of the timing,
It’s not that you don’t love me,
It’s just a little more space that you need.

And so I wait for you to come around,
To finally realize I am forever your honey,
That there’s no where you can find another flower like me,
That you are just wasting your time and wasting me.

But now, I’m just playing ball,
Smelling the perfume you left behind.
If you were not meant for me,
Then I don’t know anything.

My first love letter 16th april 1979


I have been hiding my feelings inside.
To think that you are the one for me
Ever since I caught you in my eyes,
It’s not exactly what I anticipated in mind.

Lately my presence is getting on the nerves of everybody
Even my best friend doesn’t seem to get me.
I don’t know what is happening,
Only that your smile and your perfect hair aren’t really helping.

My world, I just want it to be just you and me.
My time, I just want it to freeze when you were with me.
My plan, I just want it to involve around you and me.
My dream, I just want it to be you and me.

Are you feeling what I am feeling?
Are you on the same page as me?
Am I the only one dreaming?
Am I supposed to be the one waiting?

Maybe an answer from you will end my misery.
But then will I still get to see u every morning?

It’s official

After 3 years of wondering which engineering I might be getting into in NTU, I finally got my answer on 25^th June 2007. I’m glad to announce that it’s my first choice: Mechanical Engineering. The best part is Akbar, Eugene, Junjie, Kenny…and all are going to study the same course too. At least now, I have got Akbar to go to school with everyday. I’m glad.

GST credit has already been deposited into my bank account. That will be an additional $300 to spend before I get my part time job. At the moment, $300 may seems to be quite a big sum of money to me, but still it’s not an excuse not to find a job for the month of July. In Singapore, you will NEED MORE THAN $300 to SURVIVE.

The weather has been really really hot these days. At first, I thought I can cut my hair only before school reopens (to save money), but I changed my mind when I realized I has been bathing at least 2 times everyday. So... here is it... my new haircut.

Before>>>>>>>>>>> After

It's show time...

It’s been over a week since I am done with my psychology paper. “How’s it?” Let’s not go there. Right now, I am almost free while hunting for a temp job before school starts in aug again. I seriously hate how money makes the rich lazy and the poor ones working. It’s not that working is a bad thing but seeing those wealthy ones going overseas for holiday or, at least, enjoying their time at the Great Singapore Sale really makes my eyes sore. DO I HAVE A CHOICE? This is the key issue. No money = No talk + No choice.

Maybe I am pushing myself too hard. I meant what was I thinking when I decided to take a special term one week right after my exam was over, and now, can’t wait to work after my special term is over. Maybe I should just like my hair down a little before they are all gone due to stress and tiredness. At least until I got my temp job.

While waiting for grey’s anatomy to start its 4^th season, I am watching Brothers & Sisters starring the one and only Calista Flockhart. To be honest, She is the reason why I watch the series at first but now, I am hooked to all the characters and relationships of the Walker’s family. Every episode is like a party. I am hoping for the 2^nd season to be aired soon. If not, I will be spending more hours on drama shows rather than lect notes when school reopens.

Speaking of school, I got kicked out of my hall. Haiz... I got all my stuff back at home and after the special term, i must say, I am still not used to the traveling. As a result, all I can do now is to plan my time table really really well in order to save time and travel cost. But according to what they said, yr2 's schedule will be tigher than yr1's. We shall see how then.

You are all that matters

It’s the crave of sleeping with you every wake-up in the mornings.
It’s the noise of my alarm clock that disturbed your sleep.
It’s the getaway you planned so hard but I failed to meet.
It’s the number of “I love you” in exchange with my “I’m sorry”.

It’s the smell of your breathe in the mid of a cold breeze.
It’s the taste of your tongue like nobody’s.
It’s the words you said that made me believe in fairy tales again.
It’s the moment when I look at you and you don’t look away.

It’s the everyday life you turn into Halloween.
It’s how right you were about me that I hate to admit.
It’s how you pretend to like my taste in music.
It’s the number of calls from you in London when I was sick.

And of course, it’s the expensive gifts you showered on me
and telling me how my smile is all you need.

These days…

Finally, I am done with psychology quiz 1 and 2. Just one week after my exam, psychology module kicked in and it’s 10 chapters to study within 5 weeks. Like Biology, it’s an interesting subject, with lots of nice videos to see. But it’s a lot of information to digest with very little time. Seriously, you can’t cover a chapter within the 2 hours lecture. So no choice, weekend have to be spent studying the textbook. Quiz 1- 14/16, Quiz 2- 15/16…not bad right?

Moved out of my hall, which means back to staying at home. I still find it a chore to travel from home to school, especially for just 2 hrs lessons, 3 times a week. Maybe this is the reason why I choose to stay in hall in the first place. I just hope that they will accept my hostel application for my yr2.

Being at home means more tv time. I have been losing touch of the news and the outside world during my stay in hall. Sadly, all the news I heard is not good news. There are so many cases in which people die just like that. Incidents like the 2 NSFs in Taiwan training, the women killed by fallen tree during her morning walk…etc. It really makes me realize how sudden your life can be taken away…like the chickens and ducks in the farms. The only difference is you have your love ones crying for you after you were gone and it’s like that will make things better?!?

Finally, i watched "Hard Candy". It's the movie I wanted to watch since sem1 but I remembered only a few cinemas has it and Eugene chose to watch "The Lake House" over it. By the way, “Hard Candy” is not a porno film. I told so many of my friends and porn is the first thing that came to their heads. Anyway, “Hard Candy” is definitely more realistic and intense than “The Lake house”. It’s about a 32 yo guy meeting up a 14 yo teenage girl whom he chatted over the Internet and realized he is not on top of his game. Still, it’s not porn.

Finally, exam over, yr1 over. Yeah, 3 months long break. I wanna thank akbar and xin xin and sandy and students from my malay class. Without you all, I will not be able to even finished my malay exam paper. So TERIMA KASIH! OH…and happy belated birthday to me…haha…BIG 22 on the 22^nd of April. It’s a big thing!!! Spent it with Eugene, studying material science!?! So glad that my room mate is Eugene. I wanna eat pizza and he agreed. It's really the small little things that count. And thanks for the Avril lavigne CD, The Best Damn Thing. I am happy. And thanks chin bee for spiderman 3 even though she is the one who wanna watch it. I am happy.
22 liao…I still remembered my 21^st birthday wish is to enjoy my uni life and make some good friends, and I did. I just wish my result will be good this time round. Haha… but no matter what my results will be, I tried my best…not studying, but doing the exam papers. Trust me, there is a difference. Meanwhile, I wanna dedicate this song to all the teachers who set the exam papers…Thanks…

I Like Studying on 20042007

I like studying.
The fact that it makes me think,
Think of the weirdest reason,
Just to get out of it.

Suddenly the room needs to be cleaned.
Suddenly my stomach is always empty.
Suddenly I agreed it’s good to sleep early.
Suddenly I can’t seem to breathe.

Maybe it’s due to the weather.
Maybe the bed is a better table.
Maybe I should use pen instead of pencil.
Maybe studying is not my kind of thing after all these years.

Unless the notes have all the answers.
Unless I can beat all those china students.
Unless Avril lavigne would be my teacher.
Unless I can concentrate a little better.

But I like studying,
Just that it makes me think,
Think of the weirdest reason,
To get out of it.

HEADACHE



Since when has it become a monthly post? Haha...guessed that it looks like it for now. Sem 2 is really going very fast, and before i realised it, exam is in less than 20 days. Ya... I know. Here it goes again. It's time to start digging for coins in the spare pockets of my jeans and throw them into the wishing well(if you get wat i meant). I really don't have confidence in any of the paper this time round.
No time, no time, no time... I wrote stuff, will find time to post them after the exam before i lost the bits and pieces of my writing paper. Anyway, this post is not only about whining, but to share a piece of good news. SUN YANZI 10TH Ablum is finally finally out. I quite like it, even though i was hoping for more surprises, most of the songs are her normal bittersweet love songs...which are also good by the way. Maybe I will like it more, and I always will, when I listen to them more, but now, it's back to lecture notes and tutorials.

My own hero


We talked, we nodded,
Showing our signature smiles.
I thought, some sort,
It’s gonna last for awhile.

But no, you go,
Leaving me here alone.
It’s cold and I know,
Only I can be my own hero.

And i say,
Time will grow into years.
Time will tell what you have learnt.
Time will evaporate your tears.
Time will mend what you have burnt.

Soon enough the pain will fade away.
For now, it still feels like yesterday,
The look on your face and the things u said,
The memories still swimming in my head.


PS, Happy Valentine's Day

I’m shedding my skin

Pls don’t think U know me

I'm not who I used to be

Don’t make me into your own belief

It’s a new beginning

Just wait N see

Bittersweet Memories

If you were to ask me what kind of student I used to be,
Honestly speaking, I couldn’t give you an exact answer.
Lessons were always boring from what I could remember,
With me hiding at the far end of the corner.

Ya…I was that kid in high school.
And what kept me going was the trip to school.
I would wake up early to stand in front of the queue,
Not boarding the train until I saw you.

I never knew your name,
We weren’t from the same school.
Your uniform always looked so new,
I felt so good standing next to you.

If only you knew how I feel,
If only I were within your scope of view,
If only you would take some time away from your book,
If only I had the courage to say “I like you”.

True enough, I didn’t get to see you after the summer break.
I even went to wait at your school’s main gate.
It’s either you have moved or graduated,
But it sure left me with one hell of a heartache.

Thanks and no thanks…

Thanks for telling me you visit my blog diligently, no thanks for asking me to update my blog diligently… and thanks for telling me everything is gonna be better once I get used to the situations. I guess I am getting used to being a schoolboy again. Getting used to getting over with getting lousy grades. Now, it’s going to be just mugging for the nightmare that is going to haunt me in less than a month time. Meaning to say, I will be coming in here less often. Anyhow, hope to bring you guys good news during my next update. Wish me luck and all the concentration I need. I will miss you all and this is true.

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Tell me...

It’s not about getting the As and Bs,
It’s not about meeting the deadlines,
It’s not about being punctual for lectures,
It’s not about finding answers to your tutorials,
It’s not about getting ahead of the class,
It’s not about chasing time,
It’s not about being right.
Tell me…

A guy like me can only hold up for so long. It’s intense, very very intense hanging in there and I am done. I just want to sit down and waste time. I just want to have more fun. Yeah, I’m unhappy and complaining and you are right, I’m living in Singapore, the tell-me-when-to-smile city. Kill me now…pls…I promise I will die smiling.

Finally....



One week break from school, not school work...but school. Although there's some catching up of work to do, tv time will still be, of course, tv time.

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This is Me so far….


Sitting in a LT,
That’s how my day usually begins.
With a pencil and a highlighter,
Painting the notes on the table.

Trying hard listening to the lecturer,
As the surrounding’s murmurs getting louder.
An hour passed and I have no idea,
When the lecturer asked if we got the whole picture.

Attending tutorials after lunch is the worst.
Your eyes start to close even if your tutor is a pretty girl.
“Vectors, Optics, Limits, Acid…etc” so many chapters,
Takes only one month to cover.

Soon it’s two weeks to exam.
Chinese saying, I’m like an ant
Under a wok of fire.
Now then I realized,
Uni life is, after all, not that enjoyable.

My 100th entry...


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A Day As a Banquet

Today, I joined my aunt to be a banquet at the Le Meridien hotel. I always thought working as a banquet would be quite relaxing until I tried it out myself. After filling up the personal information and collecting our uniforms, we went for a briefing by the manager who divided the lot of banquets into 4 teams. In my team, there are 3 guys and 3 gals and turned out that the guys would be the runners whose role was to bring out all the plates of food to gals to serve. Imagine carrying 10 plates of main course dishes on a tray for countless of rounds…Furthermore, different dishes are located at different rooms and you really have to walk fast, not run, so as not to break the plates or glasses. The gals will be inside the hall topping drinks for the guests. After the guests finished the food, the runners then have to bring all the dirty plates, collected by the gals, into the big smelly basin in the kitchen. The grant finale will be the packing up after the guests left. The gals cleared up the tables while the guys stacked up the chairs and rolled the cleared tables into the furniture room. All in all, it’s really like sia kang for just $6 per hour. The good thing is I managed not to break anything and my captain and staffs were nice. But honestly speaking, being a banquet is really not my dish. It’s going to be my once in a lifetime experience and hence, the photo for memory.

Less fantasy, more reality

When Love needed some motions,
Are you going to make it happen?
Don’t just say all the right things,
I’m not sure how long I can keep waiting.

There’s a thing they have been telling me.
Better regret the things you do, than the things you don’t do.
I don’t need you to be a slut or something,
I just need you to know, you can have my cake and eat it too.

So go for it, I’m sure you will like.
Don’t be shy, I shall give you some guides.
Kiss me when you say you love me,
Bite me when you feel like it.

“Less fantasy, more reality” is my policy,
Do you get what I mean?

Before we look at all the pics of smiling faces and celebrate our national day…

I wanna say, stop the war,
Stop those gunshots…

I don’t wanna wake up every morning
To find my only goal is to stay alive,
In this living hell where I see people die,
Every waking moment of my life.

I don’t wanna learn how to use a gun
To have the thought of using it,
To shoot the bad guys who try to rape me
Every night.

I don’t wanna leave everything behind,
Look up to the middle of the sky
For bombs which will be coming down
To where I hide.

I don’t wanna lie to my child,
To say that it is gonna be ok,
When I might be gone for a second,
And never ever be coming back.

I wanna say, we are all
Human beings with thoughts and feelings
for god’s sake,
not just some piece of "walking meat".

Let the anger goes,
Let the bullets go,
Let the innocents go,
Let the tears go.....

I miss Ally Mcbeal .....



This is one of my fav shows which accompanied me through my lonely sec school life...I would never fail to catch it on channel 5...haha...Thinking of getting the dvds...But where???

I just watched the show and I have to say I really enjoyed it. I love watching horror movies especially when they have taught me one thing or two. Of course, if you don’t watch it, you won’t learn from it. So I really urge those who haven’t watched this show to go try. It’s not really scary after all.

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Too Lost In You






All my friends seem to be doing ok.
Why am I the only one not in the case?
I don’t need plenty of dates,
I just need you to think my way.

Tell me you are busy.
Yes, you know I will believe.
Tell me you are not ignoring me.
Cos you have no idea what you have done to me
By not doing anything.

I wish I could compete
With all those stuff that are preventing you from loving me.
I don’t know what I am doing,
I just wanna make you happy.

And you can’t blame me,
You are the one making me lose me.
God, please tell me it’s worth it,
Or wake me up from this dream.

For those leaving us, leaving Singapore for studies, aka the rich ones....

ppl like chris (already there), yong sheng, ziyang, terrance...etc

A song for u...

A night in the life of a prostitute… Just imagine…

You came in,
Glares exchanged.
You picked me, to make you happy.
First we went hawker to dine-in,
You were not stingy,
I had all I want to eat.

We talked abit,
You said I was too skinny,
You kept feeding me.
But I thought, being thin
Is one of the reasons you chose me.

Next, to a hotel room, we booked in.
You were nervous, I could see.
It’s good, cos I don’t like guys too friendly.
Then…

“DON”T READ FURTHER IF U THINK U WILL GET OFFENDED”

After we bathed, this is when it begins.
Your hands on my silky skin,
Your lips exploring every inch,
You were gentle, like it’s your first time in.

"You are my master; I’m your queen."
“Go deep, feel the magic…”
On bed, on table, on floor beside the fringe,
God, you were better than I imagined.

It’s 3am, you were sleeping like a baby.
On the lamp table, I saw your money.
Not wanting to wake you,
I took it, assuming it’s for me.
Good night and good bye, Mr....eh...darling.