Does it really matter about what people have to say?
Does it always have to be their way?
So you let them touch your breast just because they said it’s fake?
So you let them take advantage and then get paid?
Maybe there’s nothing wrong with being fake.
Maybe it’s better for to be hated.
God, why do we have to go through so much pain?
God, why did you die for us if that’s the case?

Junk food is junk food.
You don’t add some vege,
And then call it healthy.
So don’t get too happy,
When they served you chips.
It’s not like it is not heaty enough,
They added it with chili.
Of course I’m sure it’s tasty,
But, of course, I’m sure you want to be healthy.

Song of the day : Into the fire By Thirteen Senses

So it’s like “desperate housewives” didn’t give me the kick enough, “Grey’s anatomy” just got me hooked. I don’t know if I’m the only TV freak here, but “Grey’s anatomy” just rocks big time. I mean it’s ER + SCRUBS + hell lots more… It always gives me goosebumps (the good ones) every time I watched the show and I don’t know how I can describe it further than to ask you to watch it yourself if you want to know what I am talking about. For those who don’t know, it’s on channel 5 every Mondays at 11pm, right after the “desperate housewives”. It really makes being doctors and surgeons seems like a very cool and meaningful job to have, and even if you would think maybe, it’s just another drama series, why not give it a try and maybe get a cure for your “Monday blues”? I know I did and it kind of work for me…...

Festival people



We just saw that in Chinese New Year,
Festivals bring in people.
Collecting red packets after reunion dinner,
Is one out of many examples.
Busy people kind of needs them more than other,
To have a reason to rest and gather.
Luckily for them,
Festivals come one after another.
Valentine’s day comes right after the New Yr.
So who is complaining no time to spend with their lovers?

Faces I see everyday,
People I work with everyday,
Not always the ones I like everyday,
Not always work the way I like everyday.
It sucks but so is life anyway.
And somehow it’s the only way.
To handle things which are not child’s play.
Some idiots come and go along the way
“At least it’s not happening everyday…” I pray.

Whatever I do, I don’t have to answer to you
You fuckin' piece of shit.
You are the slacking, not-doing-anything ass-pipe
You don’t deserve the right to comment on people not working
You are stupid enough to suck in all the crap you think is right
You thought you are so cool now, not doing anything.
I’m telling you, I don’t give a shit about you,
So u better leave me alone, you pig-ass-big-head-cow-dung.



Finally, i let it out.
Two more months...

We are all humans after all


I never actually talk about my army life ever since I entered unit simply because, first, there is nothing good or worth to tell, second is I don’t wanna accidentally spill any restricted secret out and get myself into unnecessary trouble. Trust me, it doesn’t worth a hydrogen atom. But this week, I see a lot. Really a lot. I see how good people work with good people, I see how good people work with bad people, I see how bad people who doesn’t work and only know how to cause trouble. People tell lies, but bad people are those who tell lies unnecessarily and put blame on the good people. This sort of people can be found everywhere. I myself cannot stand liars. I realized that when I discover all the people I dislike are all fakers and good “actors”. Talking bad stuff behind people’s back is really not my kind of thing and before that, I thought that this entry is going to be one for me to vent my anger on this idiot in camp and let it all out. This is until when I reached home and then, magically, all the frustrations went away and understand that we are all humans after all. Maybe that’s why I always wanna go nowhere, but to return home to my family. Family is still the best.


That I Would Be Good
by Alanis Morissette / sun yanzi

That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing
That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy
That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
Whether with or without you

Goo Goo Dolls Feat Avril Lavigne - Iris (Live VH1 Fashion Ro

2006, I don’t know why.
If u carry on to be like that,
I’m starting to miss 2005.
All the anticipation and things like that,
Never goes accordingly as planned.
And I still wanna believe in you,
Only because that’s the only thing I can do.
Believing that things will somehow get better,
Believing that people will treat each other better.
Believing that the world will fail us never.
Believing that life is now or never.
Believing is all that I can do……

This is life
Just like we need food to stay alive,
Human’s needs are never satisfied.
Haven’t learnt to walk; yet they want to fly.
Never settle with simple; they always want it better.
Until it’s over; before they thought of the word “treasure”.
God, I just pray I don’t die being a sinner.
I promise I will be better this year…

Few more hours before we say our final goodbye to 2005 and welcome our long await 2006. 2005 has been the most challenging year for me so far. There have been a lot of new people met, new changes to adapt and new requirements needed to meet. Scary, scary, scary… Luckily, I have some true friends to count on and I really have to thank them for being so understanding. I know I have to work on my childish acts and situation awareness. 2006 is definitely a good year to look ahead to. We got my ord coming, yar… and, actually this reason is more than enough…haha…Got to go countdown…You know you have to show it if you really want it…

We are all busy,
Too busy to care more about each other’s feelings.
That’s why we have festivals like thanksgiving,
To show, in our lives, that you are not missing.
So don’t be such a petty,
It’s not like you are all so giving.
Just remember we are all busy,And well, at least, we got our thanksgiving.

Your Birthdate: April 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know. Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid Your power color: Silver Your power symbol: Square Your power month: April

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Two years ago, on this very day, I enlisted. Meaning to say, today is my 2nd yr anniversary with SAF. Not something great, not something worth celebrating but, it's still a date. Today's NSF no longer need to meet this date, unless they do something so wrong that will extend their ord dates. I believe that's the last thing they wish to happen. They said, you can skip army if you got the money, but I think, it's not bad to get paid to learn some gunnery after all.


For a friend of mine who unfortunately died during army,


He is a boy with a simple mind,
always tries to help others and be kind.
Never think of himself or his life,
he is one of a kind you can't find.


After his jc years, it's 2 years of NS.
Feeling motivated, there's nothing to fear.
But after a year, there's ought to be tears.
No matter how much he hates it, there's still another year.


It's not about being pushed around.
It's not about a new bad friend you found.
It's not about the many mistakes you lost count.
It's really not as bad as it sounds.

For all the things I've got,

I praise the lord.

For all the things I'm not,

I praise the lord.

For he gives me a place to belong,

for he gives me a good life i always forgot,

for everything and anything,

I praise the lord.

Some stuff I wrote when I was in Australia, RockHampton.


To my greatest grandpa,


I know you are happy,
I see you smiling in my dreams.
I’m sorry,
Your love is so taken for granted when you were alive.
I hope you are with me,
Not the things you left behind.
I miss you so badly,
Words can’t even describe.
Sweet memories I will keep,
Till I meet you in my second life.


Idiot / fuc*ker


I hate when people are so practical.
They smile at you
Only when they need a favour.
And throw you one side
When you are not needed any further.
Indeed, it makes you feel like an idiot.
Trying to wonder, “is it worth taking the trouble?”
In the end, it’s up to each individual
To be an idiot or a fuc*ker.



Making Love


At 20,
I love you,
To let you take my breath,
Make you sweat,
Kiss your ass.

At 30,
I love you,
To let you in my body,
Taste your honey,
Bear your baby.

At 40,
I love you.
I lied,
Fake my orgasm,
Let you rest.


I need money.
Any kind soul to help me?
Get me a job that’s easy,
And not time consuming.
Considering the fact that I’m still in the army.
I’m not choosy,
But for god’s sake,
Stop telling me to go changi,
To sell my ass and body.
I’m not that cheap to start with.
Seriously, I need money.
Can you hire me?


Look at me,
That’s only so much you can see.
Don’t judge me,
You don’t even know me.
Let me be,
Like you care if I were happy.
Set me free,You know you don’t need me.

To all my friends, I’m back
Thanks for all the concern you have had
I’m still good so don’t be scared.
Now all I need is a short little nap.

3 weeks,
21 days,
504 hrs,
30240 min,
1814400s
Yes, it’s ex Wallaby
Yes, it’s in Australia
Yes, it’s oversea
Yes, it sounds fun to you…
But, No, at least not for me
For god sake,
No TV,
No favorite music,
No Internet,
No favorite food,
No air-con,
No bed,
No cinema,
No family…etc and the list go on n on n on n…



Supposedly I am anticipating for the trip. Really, I meant, it’s my 2nd time riding on a plane (SIA some more), and it’s Australia. I wanted to go there since young, only because that’s the only foreign country my primary school English teachers used to mention. No, not US, not German or Italy, but that’s really beside the point. The point is, everybody’s first response to my trip is “wooh, Australia, must be fun. Army is so good to you, must bring me gifts.” I understand that they meant well but they forgot that I am not there for holiday. I have to tell them the real deal for being there and all the Nos and it begins to make me feel sian. I hope it’s not that bad. Taiwan trip was fun. Anyway, since it’s just tomorrow, let’s just pray that everything goes smoothly and we all come back in one piece on 251105. I wanna come back a better person, with no regret and hard feelings with anybody. I mean, I still love the country. World peace. Read today’s paper….why can’t we looking forward to our festivals and celebrate them just like before? What’s wrong with the terrorists? Don’t they have families too? “Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know” quoted from the book [The five people you meet in heaven]

Say no more, my heart can’t break further.


I know you need a lover, not a partner.


It’s time for us to part,


Goodbye my angel, my dearest sweetheart.


It kills me to think of words to say.


No word can describe the love we shared.


First kiss, first tear, first Christmas,


All memories in my head, still so clear.


Time, I need a break.


Seriously,


Wake me up when November ends.

Looking at these photos, i realised,
Life is not as cold as i was being told.
Memories unfolded, no, they can't be sold.
But as i looked around me, i can't help but asked,
where did everybody go?

In life, we all have different goals-
Some we accomplished,
some we forgone.
But, wherever you go,
please let me know.
I may not follow, but at least,
I can answer to the moon
when he asks me so....