Oops!...I Did It Again

First of all, I must say, I am really pleased with my results. My late nights in NTU did pay off. As usual, I managed to clear all the modules (abit of luck) but what really made me so proud that I have to post it here is that finally, for the first time, I see no ‘C’…All As and Bs, mostly B+(definitely luck). But you got to be happy for me if you have seen how I studied. My roomie would know. Of course, I have to thank my tutors and friends who have blessed and helped me along the way. I still need them for the next few sems to keep up the grades and the ultimate goal: Up Up the GPA…But for now, a new haircut for the New Year.
Cheers...

Some

My favourite word at the moment : "Some". And words which have it with - Someone, Sometimes, Something, Somewhere...etc. Like they say, too much of anything is bad for you. Sometimes, just be glad that you have something with someone somewhere. 2007 is ending soon and this year, I lost some and gain some. But, Isn't life something like that...

A trip down to IMM and we said...

'Halleluyah'. First it was the shuttle bus, then the building itself. Guessed the rain didn’t kill the people’s shopping spirit any bit. It’s been ages since I last shopped with my mom. Needless to say, photo taking is definitely at the top of our shopping list.

Me with A Reindeer-Wannabe

Got myself a pair of black jeans to make the day's squeezing worthwhile. Haha...We got all the wrong reasons for buying new stuff, don't we? Well, that would be the christmas spirit I guessed...

Sungei Gedong it is!!!

So it's 434 SAR for me, together with most of the Falcon and Glory Specalists I see. I hope it's a gd thing with the disbandment. I guess I shan't complain until my first ICT which the CO, Major Chin I think, said should be on 16-28 June 08. Till then, I will be crossing my fingers and hoping I will be in good company.

蕭敬騰



He is good, so good that made me want to save him here. I don't have to, but I want...

True Colors...

Took an online quiz and found out that I'm actually Yellow...The first thing which came into my mind is, "yellow, yellow, dirrty fellow". Ya, which is also what my friends called me during my days in Jiemin Primary School. If you wonder why, it's only because I belonged to the "Yellow House" at that time. It was so so so so long ago...Anyhow, more on the quiz...

The color of brightness and sunshine - you sure know how to add color to someones life! A primary color, the color of sun, life and happiness - you sure do live a wonderful life and possess the unique ability to brighten anyones day with a mere touch. The color of royalty, smileys and happiness - be proud of being Yellow!

This what I'm saying...

"Happily Ever After"...Overrated???

Looking at the days ahead,
It’s so sunny and great.
Suddenly, I feel not equipped,
ready to enjoy what I have.

You see, for me, it had always been about the chase,
Wanting the stuff I couldn’t get.
Even though the trips and falls,
It’s less painful this way.

Cos what’s so desirable about finally getting what you wanted?
You cling on tightly to “happily ever after”,
So afraid that any small change
will drive your prince charming away.
And so you stand still and wait,
For him to eventually get sick
and not walk away.

I guess it’s a different ball game altogether.
I guess relationship is nothing without issues and complications.
I guess faith is nothing without courage.
I guess tomorrow is nothing without today.

You make me want to take the first step.

You are whatever “happily ever after” means.

Let's get Crazy...

What is love exactly? Is it the feeling we get when we cuddled? Is it really in the air? Is it larger than life? Is it worth the pain? And how is it measured? Is it by the amount of sweet-talking and gifts? By the things we do together? The way we kissed? Or is it just about every little thing? We don’t know its definition but still, the truth is, we all want to be madly in love, to be able to feel the passion and the heat. So much so that we do crazy, stupid things –to find it, get it, and escape it until we meet our so-called “True love”. The one whom you would say “you jump, I jump”, “I promise you anything” to, and then…the crazy stuff start again. What I am trying to say is, there is a reason why we live to love, even though we don’t understand the exact mechanism of it. We are borned with it, just like we know how to breathe. And hey, as for the crazy things, if you haven’t noticed, it’s a crazy world we are living in and crazy world, well, is meant for crazy you and crazy me.

For those who care enough, I am not dead... at least not yet. It’s just that it’s that time of the year again. Jia you to everyone and try not to get drowned by piles of notes and tutorials. Hope to see all the smiling faces in 2 weeks time…

At a junction, we met.
For a while, we decided to walk together before you stopped.
I turned around only to realize that you were gone.

The dating game, or so we called it, we all have gone through before.
I have had my fair share to get a taste on how it works.

That there’s a reason for you to stop.
That there’s no need to find you when you were gone.
That you will yell for me if you, too, want me to stop.
That the route is still long,
That I should just continue the walk.

That maybe on another junction, on each other, again, we will knock.
Then maybe that will be another chance we got.
Or maybe it’s like what we always console ourselves and each other,
That the right person will be waiting for us at the right spot.

Results for YR 2 Sem1 quizzes so far…

Thermodynamic 80%
Forensic science 80%
Kinematics 73%
Tech Com proposal A-
Lab report B+

So I worked my ass off for the round 1 quiz to get those grades above. It’s still not good enough when considering the fact that there are probably a few thousands of the rest who got full marks. Let’s just hope that my remaining 3 quizzes and project presentation will score better. But meanwhile, I am really hoping the school will allocate me a room in any hall to stay for the exam period in nov 07 and the rest of my Yr2. I’m crossing my fingers and praying hard. Wish me luck...

Mid Autumn Festival


Celebrating festivals is the best reason for family members to get together.
The full moon and candles lights are just bonuses.
We talked about our future plans and how we can help one another.
A simple night can be full of surprises.

For the little kids, they still have their time to talk rubbish,
For their parents, they should stop worrying just about everything,
For the pet lovers, they have to teach their animals not to eat candles,
For the neighbours, they should stop being busybodies and start to mind their own businesses.

The night ended with burnt lanterns and smelly ashes.
No one mention anything about the beautiful Chang’E,
Or the rabbit that still might be with her,
Or how, in the next morning, the cleaners will suffer.

“至少我都会‘下面’给他吃…”

This must be the best joke I have heard in this year. Bravo la, 利菁…

Playing with fate

In life, there will be some people you don’t wish to see.
But still, fate plays with you like your worst enemy.
So now, that’s the situation I’m in.
That person is standing right in front of me.

And here’s the thing so as to speak,
It’s not like I hate him or anything.
I guess I’m also the one he doesn’t want to see,
So why make each other’s day so unhappy?

My plan is, I try to be nice.
I mean, it’s not that hard to smile and say hi.
It doesn’t even matter if he doesn’t reply.
It will just save me from saying goodbye.

Call me being fake or even a hypocrite,
I’m doing the right thing, that’s what my mother will say.
She insists on telling me to keep my friends close but my enemies closer.
“No thanks”, I told her.

GIMME MORE ...



More promo clips while counting down the days to sep 27 pls... Haha...Meanwhile, I have just finished my lab report and realised that quizs are starting next wk... must STUDY MORE...

FRIENDS -

they are the ones who stop you from getting into trouble and not those who tell others to watch.

This, I always forget... maybe it's due to "Happy tree friends".

Hairspray

It’s definitely a movie for the underdogs. If ugly were the new beauty, this movie surely takes this saying to a new level, in it’s musical way. When it comes to movies, personally, I love surprises, and I mean the good kind. And I have to say, this show is full of it. At first, I thought it’s just another teen musical flick and so, only wanted to catch Hairspray just for the fact that Michelle Pfeiffer is in it cos it’s been so long since I last saw her on the big screen. But after watching it, I felt good and I’m thinking to watch for a second time now.

Back to one of my fav Hollywood actresses, as usually, she looked gorgeous and she actually sang in the movie. I was SURPRISED. Haha… And of course, all “Ally-mcbeal” fans should know that James Marsden is a good singer and you can see him, not only sings, but doing his moves in Hairspray as well. Last but not least, there is the lady’s choice, Zac Efron, and Brittany Snow to make the teen flick complete.

As for why I said this is the movie for the underdogs, those who watched it should know jolly well. And for those who haven’t watched it, you should go buy a ticket to find out for yourself. I don’t wanna give too much details away and kill the surprises. Cheers…

Wake me up when September ends....




It's official!!! The big date is 27th September 2007. I'm keeping my mind open as new characters come and old ones go...But I'm sure it's going to be all good, I mean...seriously...

My new toy


It’s what I have been busying with for the past 3 weeks. It’s big and hot and the best part is, it’s free of charge. Training is needed to prevent the user from getting hurt by it and it’s better to play it in groups if you get what I meant. Finally, I managed to get some pics of it. Let me now present to you my new toy: Stream power plant.

The various components are:

The boiler which turn water to steam

Steam pass to the superheater to become superheated vapor

finally to the steam turbine to the generator to produce electricity

Some readings to obtain for calculations

According to the lab tech who bought the power plant, any part of the component can easily cost up to a few million dollars. But for us, MAE students in ntu, it's free. For a geeky student like me, it's a good thing.

I’m sorry…I’m sorry that some days, I just feel like renting an old, sad, classic movie and watched it alone at home. I know, I already watched it over a million times and I knew that storyline whereby the girl cried, with all the stuff he had left behind, while asking why he is not coming back tonight.
And I know, I know it’s just a movie. I’m sorry, but I just like to get into the mood, to let my heart squeeze a little bit, to feel or even cry a little. All because life moves so fast, everyone moves too fast, but I’m not over it yet. I’m not ready to move on…I’m sorry.

Corrinne May knows best


Not long ago (also not really recently), I asked my friends and the people around me this question: “How is it possible for one to get natural HIGH?” Unfortunately, I didn’t manage to get a satisfying answer from anyone, until I caught this song on the radio. “Something about you” by Corrinne May. I’m enlightened but, as you know, one question leads to another, so Where are you?... ( If you get what I meant)

默契 = Ecstasy

儿时就玩在一起，
渐渐了解彼此的个性。
我知道你不说的秘密，
你清楚我不高兴会到哪里。

我感冒，你也在流鼻涕，
甚至懂我几时会放屁。
喜欢的音乐第一个告诉你，
只因为我知道你也爱听。

时间没有拉远我们的距离，
因为说好永远在一起。
争吵就帮彼此擦干泪滴。
哭后，不好的都忘记。

朋友，默契是你给我的Ecstasy。
喜欢的地方，我们一起去。
我不想说的，你都会不提。
讨厌的东西，还好你也不会把它理。

爱人不如一位好知己，
我的知己就是你。

PS: 默契 - 1. 交往;密切關係, 2. 和諧一致

Ecstasy - produces intensely pleasurable effects – including an enhanced sense of self- confidence and energy. Effects include feelings of peacefulness, acceptance and empathy.

A lot...


A lot of good habits too hard to keep
A lot of good friends too hard to meet
A lot of good deeds too hard to commit
A lot of good stories too hard to believe

A lot of good games too hard to win
A lot of good nights too hard to sleep
A lot of good songs too hard to sing
A lot of good dreams too hard to live

A lot of good results too hard to beat
A lot of good shoes too hard to fit
A lot of good veges too hard to eat
A lot of good choices too hard to pick

爱的巧克力...


Baby 是你，我的 Honey
让我心情，永远开心。
只要能和你在一起，
做什么，我都答应。

Baby 是你，不要怀疑。
没有别人，你是唯一。
你要的每一样东西，
做什么，我都答应。

你说的每一句话我都爱听，
你每一个笑容我都珍惜。
台风，下雨不敌你一颗泪滴。
永远记得你爱吃的巧克力。

Family Potrait

Was at my cousin (chuyan)'s place when my mom decided to take a few photos of ourselves... Pics really do mean a thousand words (said or unsaid) when it comes to family. Here we are...

Mom n Chuyan

Mom and I

Chuyan and I

Chuyan and I making faces

You know honeymoon is over when...

your new school timetable is up!!! kindof sad but I must say I did enjoy my 3 months break, even for the fact that I have to go back to school 3 times a week, in the first month, for my psychology classes. Compared to last year, I am having alittle less anticipation now maybe because I'm not "new bird" anymore. But still, there are stuff to get used to, for example, prepare for lectures and quizs, doing tutorials and REALLY STUDY for a BETTER GPA. Yah, tell me about it...

My face on edveNTUre?!?


One of my China friends just spotted my face on edveNTUre website and asked me to log in to see for myself. I am not 100% sure if it’s me, due to the size of the pic but I do see some similarities there. But you know what, I trust my China friends since they are all so smart and cautious and take every small single detail so ever carefully. Here is the pic and I will let you be the judge.

My first attempt at cooking: Fried Rice


After watching “大小爱吃”, I am somehow convinced/tricked into believing that cooking isn’t really a difficult task. So I decide to cook my own lunch today but the only ingredients I can found in my fringe are some cabbage, lean meat and leftover rice. And that decides my dish to be …Fried Rice.

It’s really my first try in cooking and I didn’t really think of posting an entry about it. So I didn’t take the pics of the prepared ingredients which I washed and sliced and fried. However, after tasting it, I decided to write about my successful attempt and took a pic of the done dish. I’m so proud of myself, so much so that more attempts will be coming up (I hope). Hahaha…



The end result: (Believe it or not?) A delicious lunch and a satisfied customer

Heroes Parody...


It's supposed to be a good show and then you have this...



And of course if someone were to do it, no one does it better than Madtv. It's a lazy saturday afternoon but it's good to, at least, exercise our cheek muscles.

Talking about days of our lives…



With all the army things going on right now (who says anything about LHY? Who? Who?) and the 9pm drama which is showing on channel 8 now, remind me of my army days. So this morning, I went to flip the pages of my journal I wrote in camp and came across the entry I now still find it quite funny when I rethink of it. Here it goes…

060105 (Thurs)

-Don’t be lazy!!! Must always wake up for breakfast…It’s the right thing to do, if not (before), CSM gives EXTRAS…
-B4 SOC, or other exercise, do equipment check! It’s not the men’s fault to forget stuff, it’s commanders’ fault not doing their duties to ensure.
-Commanders Vs High creditable Men
-Don’t wait 4 things to happen. Initiative…
-Don’t always treat men like friends. Know what’s the right time.
-Sispec’s Specialist Creed. Work according to that.
“I am the Specialist of Singapore Army,
With pride I lead,
I excel in my specialist field,
I ensure the discipline of my soldier and readiness of their equipment,
I will overcome adversity with my fighting spirit,
I will defend Singapore with my life.”
-Commanders do your jobs. Punish the men if necessary. Don’t wait for PS or PC to punish. If not, then you are not doing your job.

End

Thinking back, I guessed we are all trying to learn to do the right things. Failure is not a bad thing if it made us a better person. The funny thing is, most of the words in that entry came from an officer whom I slowly lost respect to as time went by. Still I wish him all the best and ORD is still the best thing which has happened to me so far.

Instant Noodles...


Me: Er…do u know the correct way of cooking instant noodles?

Grandma: What’s wrong?

Me: Just that it’s healthier to change the boiling water after the noodles is cooked.

Grandma: Why?

Me: To remove the wax.

Grandma: Ghosts also eat candles, it’s time to get used to wax.

What makes you so sure that you will wake up from your sleep?


So my friends and I was chatting the other day.

Lazy bum (LB): “Woh, weijie, you still on holiday right? So good, can stay up late and sleep like nobody’s business. How I wish I can sleep away my Monday blues and never need to wake up for work.”

Me: “What makes you so sure you will wake up from your sleep?”

LB (pause for awhile): “Come on lah, my 10 alarm clocks are not toys I put in my room for fun. And setting them every night before I sleep is not a hobby I enjoy. They, of course, have to wake me up.”

Opps...I guessed she was pissed maybe because she was looking for some comfort and not another question from me.

Another lazy bum (ALB): “Besides, we still have our secret weapon, which is, our mom. She will never let us have the chance of skipping our ‘delicious’ breakfast prepared by her.”

Me: “But that’s all provided that you are able to wake up right? What if you really sleep and never wake up? How your brain tells your eyes to open and body to start engine again?”

Marcus AKA The 4D guy: “For me, it’s the calling. For example, I had this dream last night. It’s about 4 chickens laying 5 eggs. 4-7-5-0… Woh, I have to go buy this number. Thanks for remaining me buddy.” And off he went.

Me: “…”

LB: “LoL, I got to go too. Lunch hour is over. Talk to you later. Bye.”

ALB: “ Haha… me too. And don’t think so much, weijie. See you.”

Haven’t really gotten my answer, I proceed to ask a few others…

A maid: “I never sleep. I just close my eyes for 2 hours. Mom and Sir want me to go market buy breakfast. If not, they send me home, back to Indonesia.”

A+ Scholar: “You see, it’s the habit we have since we were born. Of course, babies need more sleeps to let their brains develop and rest, but still, it’s their inner ability to cry and wake up for food and respond to the outer environment. That’s why, for those unconscious patients in hospitals, the longer they sleep, the less likely chance they will wake up….”

A lawyer: “Time is money. Sleep is no money. I love money. I live for money. Talk some more, I need you to give me money.”

An old man in the park (smile): “Are you talking to me? Haha…you good boy…”

A primary school student: “Cannot be late for school. Teacher will scold scold. I must do homework and be a good student then my mommy will buy for me presents.”

A bimbo: “I sleep so I can have no eye bag and stay pretty. Why wake up? Haha…I haven’t think about that.”

Last but not least,

A little girl named ally: “whatever!?!”

If there’s reincarnation, are you still scared of death?


It’s like God gave you a new ticket
To return to earth, to live again.
Time and situations may change,
But memories stay the same.

It brings a new way to how people connect.
Your family was mine beforehand.
I may be only four,
But I can show you that I lived before.

I still remember your grandpa’s name.
In my past, we were friends.
He died a year before Johnny was born.
At least that’s the name I now called.

For every death, there’s always a reborn.
As unbelievable as it may sound, it’s not.
God can do what Science cannot.
Belief is what we have got.

If there’s reincarnation,
Are you still scared of death?

Heroes : Rogue Wave- Eyes




The show and song I am hooked to right now.
Here's my version,

In my mind


Called you on your phone.
A guy picked up and told me you were not at home.

Well I didn’t know if it’s true,
There’s nothing I could do,
I putted down the phone,
But one thing I’m sure is you’re in my mind,
In my mind, in my mind…

Where’ve you gone this time?
It’s been 3 months and look at what you have done.

Winter is here,
It’s coming a new year.
You disappeared,
But one thing I’m sure is you’re in my mind,
In my mind, in my mind…

You are not me


My life has its perks and lousy times.
Still, it’s up to no one but me to define.
So quit saying I’m the champion when I rock,
Quit saying I’m fine when I’m not.

Don’t apologize cos I won’t die without.
I will find my own way, I don’t need your help.
Don’t cry, I hate it when you get loud.
Plus the fact that my mom can fake it better
Without making any sound.

Don’t try to find me, don’t even try to call.
Haven’t you noticed, you are not wanted anymore.
Go be someone else’s thorn,
Go find someone else to play along.

Everyone wishes…


Everyone wishes to have super powers,
The ability to be invisible,
To fly, to predict the future,
To prevent from getting hurt.

Everyone wishes to be super heroes,
To be the one in control,
To be in the know,
To be able to tell your love ones to stay out of danger and where to go.

Everyone wishes to be super natural,
To have a mission to save the world,
To at least come out with something to make life easier,
To be that someone special.

Everyone wishes for God to be a little biased,
To make each of us a little stronger.
The rules stay the same,
We are always the winners.

Are You Your Birthday?


Honestly speaking, at the age of 22, I'm still constantly trying to find out about myself, what sort of person I really am. Nevertheless, I'm one who never believe in doing the online quizs to see which type of kisser I am or what my underwears say about me. The truth is, I find the questions too idealistic and of course, I know, they are usually done by those who really have nothing better to do and therefore, shouldn't be looked upon too seriously. Then I came across this website the other day and found it to be quite accurate. The good thing is you don't have to answer any question but the bad thing is it's in chinese. Here it goes:


4月22日 計劃工程師

4月22日出生的人對于 具組織和建設本質的活動相當積極，其範圍不只是抽象的思想體系，還包括實際物質方面的建設。他們很擅長組織並經營家庭、餐廳、學校或任何社會團體，能使它 們正常地運作。矛盾的是，這些人並不特別愛交際，反而比較喜歡獨來獨往。他們大多是安安靜靜的，不太喜歡吸引別人的注意力。這天出生的人很懂得以輕松的方 式來完成艱苦任務的秘訣，而這種組織各種盛大集會的超強本領，遲早都會顯露出來的，就算沒能在職場上嶄露頭角，而只是運用在家庭聚會、開生日或結婚周年派 對這類的小場面中，只要是值得付出的，都能讓他們感到滿足和刺激。話說回來，4月22日出生的人如果不將才能發揮在商場上，那還真是浪費。有時候他們的組 織技巧很強，但有時會因為與上司的意見不合而感到心灰意冷，例如，他們可能會被指派去成立並經營一家別人名下的公司，卻在做得有聲有色之後，才發現老板太 過吹毛求疵或固執己見。諸如此類令人氣餒、沮喪的情形，常使他們寧可掛冠求去。從另一方面來說，4月22日出生的人和工作伙伴之間卻很少出問題。而在他們 摩下工作的人，也會很敬重這位上司的能力、實事求是的精神，以及豐富的人情味。不論體格壯碩與否，他們那威嚴的儀態常常是通往成功的重要因素。 4月22日出生的人最大的挑戰，在于控制自己的權力欲望。這些人當中發展得較好的，會表現得非常謙虛，既不逞能，也不驕傲；但發展得不夠好的人，則可能太 過專權，對人的態度也不夠寬容，而且常常令人難以更。這一天出生的人必須切記，應該公平、公正的運用他們發號施令的能力。雖然人世間可能會被財富和權貴人 士所眩惑，但不該全接受那些人的價值標準；而應該在研究、學習的技巧後，拒絕采用其中具破壞性的、不和諧的社會價值標準。 4月22日出生的人一旦建立了家庭、公司或組織後，每隔一段時間便會檢討它的發展是否達到自己所預期的理想。由于具有這樣的意識，他們可能會面臨一項大挑 戰，即是否要依照原訂的路線，繼續執行計劃；或是在某些重要的方面作修正；還是干脆放棄，改朝更有價值、更具意義的方向而努力。對這樣的人來說，他們通常 不知道何時該辭職，以及怎麼辭職，而且還可能因此引起精神上的痛苦和焦慮呢！此時他們必須要傾听自己內心的聲音。除此之外，為了避免被物質所奴投，這天出 生的人在精神層面上發展就顯得特別重要。

幸运数字和守护星 4月22日出生的人會受到數字4（2+2=4）以及天王星的影響。天王星代表的是古怪而且脾氣暴躁，因為這顆行星受到火星（牡羊座的主宰行星）和金星（金 牛座的主宰行星）的影響。4月22日出生的人在運用權力時，必須留意避免利用性或魅力，去達到控制別人的目的。受數字4支配的人，對人對事都有獨特的方法 和見解。由于他們常采取少數人的觀點，加上充滿自信，所以有時不免會招來敵意，樹立無數躲在暗處的敵人。此外22是雙數，因此4月22日出生的人經常會對 成雙成對的事物感興趣，例如雙胞胎、巧合的事情和對稱性等等。

健康 雖然在4月22日出生的人擁有一副說說、唱唱的好嗓子，但是他們卻可能會有頸部和喉嚨方面的健康問題。究竟是要一展這個好嗓音的天賦呢？還是要承受因其所 帶來的問題呢？這就得好好權衡一下了。對4月22日出生的人來說，性是非常重要的。他們可能對性十分著迷，也可能把它升華成各種不同的感官享樂形式，例 如，給人按摩或被人按摩，都能使這天出生的人產生一種特殊的快感。另外，當他們待在廚房時，都會感到非常快樂，因此應該盡可能讓自己悠游于品嘗和實驗美食 佳肴的天地中。適度的運動有助于對抗體重的增加，但是要避免運動過度。

建议

塔罗牌 大秘儀塔羅牌的第22張是“愚者”。圖案是一個人快活地站在懸崖邊。有的解釋是他十分愚蠢，缺乏理性判斷的能力；有的則指出他們極端崇尚精神層面，不在乎 現實。總的來說就是憑直覺行事、沒有描繪和抵抗的能力；同時，也代表了愚蠢、沖動和虛無。不過他們之中較成熟的，則會從生命的歷練中學取經驗，然後成為自 己理想中的人。

静思语 在黑暗中看事物，看不清楚，那麼就用心來感受吧。

优点 組織力強、實事求是、相貌威嚴。

缺点 不易相處、崇尚物質。

Last night's daydreaming...


Playing ball, wasting time,
Trying to get you out my mind.
But in my room I still find,
The scent of your perfume you left behind.

My mom once told me this,
“Good-flower-no-scare-bees-don’t-visit”.
But I never understand why they always leave
After they got their honey.

There has been time like this,
You said it’s because of the timing,
It’s not that you don’t love me,
It’s just a little more space that you need.

And so I wait for you to come around,
To finally realize I am forever your honey,
That there’s no where you can find another flower like me,
That you are just wasting your time and wasting me.

But now, I’m just playing ball,
Smelling the perfume you left behind.
If you were not meant for me,
Then I don’t know anything.

My first love letter 16th april 1979


I have been hiding my feelings inside.
To think that you are the one for me
Ever since I caught you in my eyes,
It’s not exactly what I anticipated in mind.

Lately my presence is getting on the nerves of everybody
Even my best friend doesn’t seem to get me.
I don’t know what is happening,
Only that your smile and your perfect hair aren’t really helping.

My world, I just want it to be just you and me.
My time, I just want it to freeze when you were with me.
My plan, I just want it to involve around you and me.
My dream, I just want it to be you and me.

Are you feeling what I am feeling?
Are you on the same page as me?
Am I the only one dreaming?
Am I supposed to be the one waiting?

Maybe an answer from you will end my misery.
But then will I still get to see u every morning?

It’s official

After 3 years of wondering which engineering I might be getting into in NTU, I finally got my answer on 25^th June 2007. I’m glad to announce that it’s my first choice: Mechanical Engineering. The best part is Akbar, Eugene, Junjie, Kenny…and all are going to study the same course too. At least now, I have got Akbar to go to school with everyday. I’m glad.

GST credit has already been deposited into my bank account. That will be an additional $300 to spend before I get my part time job. At the moment, $300 may seems to be quite a big sum of money to me, but still it’s not an excuse not to find a job for the month of July. In Singapore, you will NEED MORE THAN $300 to SURVIVE.

The weather has been really really hot these days. At first, I thought I can cut my hair only before school reopens (to save money), but I changed my mind when I realized I has been bathing at least 2 times everyday. So... here is it... my new haircut.

Before>>>>>>>>>>> After

It's show time...

It’s been over a week since I am done with my psychology paper. “How’s it?” Let’s not go there. Right now, I am almost free while hunting for a temp job before school starts in aug again. I seriously hate how money makes the rich lazy and the poor ones working. It’s not that working is a bad thing but seeing those wealthy ones going overseas for holiday or, at least, enjoying their time at the Great Singapore Sale really makes my eyes sore. DO I HAVE A CHOICE? This is the key issue. No money = No talk + No choice.

Maybe I am pushing myself too hard. I meant what was I thinking when I decided to take a special term one week right after my exam was over, and now, can’t wait to work after my special term is over. Maybe I should just like my hair down a little before they are all gone due to stress and tiredness. At least until I got my temp job.

While waiting for grey’s anatomy to start its 4^th season, I am watching Brothers & Sisters starring the one and only Calista Flockhart. To be honest, She is the reason why I watch the series at first but now, I am hooked to all the characters and relationships of the Walker’s family. Every episode is like a party. I am hoping for the 2^nd season to be aired soon. If not, I will be spending more hours on drama shows rather than lect notes when school reopens.

Speaking of school, I got kicked out of my hall. Haiz... I got all my stuff back at home and after the special term, i must say, I am still not used to the traveling. As a result, all I can do now is to plan my time table really really well in order to save time and travel cost. But according to what they said, yr2 's schedule will be tigher than yr1's. We shall see how then.

You are all that matters

It’s the crave of sleeping with you every wake-up in the mornings.
It’s the noise of my alarm clock that disturbed your sleep.
It’s the getaway you planned so hard but I failed to meet.
It’s the number of “I love you” in exchange with my “I’m sorry”.

It’s the smell of your breathe in the mid of a cold breeze.
It’s the taste of your tongue like nobody’s.
It’s the words you said that made me believe in fairy tales again.
It’s the moment when I look at you and you don’t look away.

It’s the everyday life you turn into Halloween.
It’s how right you were about me that I hate to admit.
It’s how you pretend to like my taste in music.
It’s the number of calls from you in London when I was sick.

And of course, it’s the expensive gifts you showered on me
and telling me how my smile is all you need.

These days…

Finally, I am done with psychology quiz 1 and 2. Just one week after my exam, psychology module kicked in and it’s 10 chapters to study within 5 weeks. Like Biology, it’s an interesting subject, with lots of nice videos to see. But it’s a lot of information to digest with very little time. Seriously, you can’t cover a chapter within the 2 hours lecture. So no choice, weekend have to be spent studying the textbook. Quiz 1- 14/16, Quiz 2- 15/16…not bad right?

Moved out of my hall, which means back to staying at home. I still find it a chore to travel from home to school, especially for just 2 hrs lessons, 3 times a week. Maybe this is the reason why I choose to stay in hall in the first place. I just hope that they will accept my hostel application for my yr2.

Being at home means more tv time. I have been losing touch of the news and the outside world during my stay in hall. Sadly, all the news I heard is not good news. There are so many cases in which people die just like that. Incidents like the 2 NSFs in Taiwan training, the women killed by fallen tree during her morning walk…etc. It really makes me realize how sudden your life can be taken away…like the chickens and ducks in the farms. The only difference is you have your love ones crying for you after you were gone and it’s like that will make things better?!?

Finally, i watched "Hard Candy". It's the movie I wanted to watch since sem1 but I remembered only a few cinemas has it and Eugene chose to watch "The Lake House" over it. By the way, “Hard Candy” is not a porno film. I told so many of my friends and porn is the first thing that came to their heads. Anyway, “Hard Candy” is definitely more realistic and intense than “The Lake house”. It’s about a 32 yo guy meeting up a 14 yo teenage girl whom he chatted over the Internet and realized he is not on top of his game. Still, it’s not porn.

Finally, exam over, yr1 over. Yeah, 3 months long break. I wanna thank akbar and xin xin and sandy and students from my malay class. Without you all, I will not be able to even finished my malay exam paper. So TERIMA KASIH! OH…and happy belated birthday to me…haha…BIG 22 on the 22^nd of April. It’s a big thing!!! Spent it with Eugene, studying material science!?! So glad that my room mate is Eugene. I wanna eat pizza and he agreed. It's really the small little things that count. And thanks for the Avril lavigne CD, The Best Damn Thing. I am happy. And thanks chin bee for spiderman 3 even though she is the one who wanna watch it. I am happy.
22 liao…I still remembered my 21^st birthday wish is to enjoy my uni life and make some good friends, and I did. I just wish my result will be good this time round. Haha… but no matter what my results will be, I tried my best…not studying, but doing the exam papers. Trust me, there is a difference. Meanwhile, I wanna dedicate this song to all the teachers who set the exam papers…Thanks…

I Like Studying on 20042007

I like studying.
The fact that it makes me think,
Think of the weirdest reason,
Just to get out of it.

Suddenly the room needs to be cleaned.
Suddenly my stomach is always empty.
Suddenly I agreed it’s good to sleep early.
Suddenly I can’t seem to breathe.

Maybe it’s due to the weather.
Maybe the bed is a better table.
Maybe I should use pen instead of pencil.
Maybe studying is not my kind of thing after all these years.

Unless the notes have all the answers.
Unless I can beat all those china students.
Unless Avril lavigne would be my teacher.
Unless I can concentrate a little better.

But I like studying,
Just that it makes me think,
Think of the weirdest reason,
To get out of it.

HEADACHE



Since when has it become a monthly post? Haha...guessed that it looks like it for now. Sem 2 is really going very fast, and before i realised it, exam is in less than 20 days. Ya... I know. Here it goes again. It's time to start digging for coins in the spare pockets of my jeans and throw them into the wishing well(if you get wat i meant). I really don't have confidence in any of the paper this time round.
No time, no time, no time... I wrote stuff, will find time to post them after the exam before i lost the bits and pieces of my writing paper. Anyway, this post is not only about whining, but to share a piece of good news. SUN YANZI 10TH Ablum is finally finally out. I quite like it, even though i was hoping for more surprises, most of the songs are her normal bittersweet love songs...which are also good by the way. Maybe I will like it more, and I always will, when I listen to them more, but now, it's back to lecture notes and tutorials.

My own hero


We talked, we nodded,
Showing our signature smiles.
I thought, some sort,
It’s gonna last for awhile.

But no, you go,
Leaving me here alone.
It’s cold and I know,
Only I can be my own hero.

And i say,
Time will grow into years.
Time will tell what you have learnt.
Time will evaporate your tears.
Time will mend what you have burnt.

Soon enough the pain will fade away.
For now, it still feels like yesterday,
The look on your face and the things u said,
The memories still swimming in my head.


PS, Happy Valentine's Day

I’m shedding my skin

Pls don’t think U know me

I'm not who I used to be

Don’t make me into your own belief

It’s a new beginning

Just wait N see

Bittersweet Memories

If you were to ask me what kind of student I used to be,
Honestly speaking, I couldn’t give you an exact answer.
Lessons were always boring from what I could remember,
With me hiding at the far end of the corner.

Ya…I was that kid in high school.
And what kept me going was the trip to school.
I would wake up early to stand in front of the queue,
Not boarding the train until I saw you.

I never knew your name,
We weren’t from the same school.
Your uniform always looked so new,
I felt so good standing next to you.

If only you knew how I feel,
If only I were within your scope of view,
If only you would take some time away from your book,
If only I had the courage to say “I like you”.

True enough, I didn’t get to see you after the summer break.
I even went to wait at your school’s main gate.
It’s either you have moved or graduated,
But it sure left me with one hell of a heartache.