Are You Your Birthday?


Honestly speaking, at the age of 22, I'm still constantly trying to find out about myself, what sort of person I really am. Nevertheless, I'm one who never believe in doing the online quizs to see which type of kisser I am or what my underwears say about me. The truth is, I find the questions too idealistic and of course, I know, they are usually done by those who really have nothing better to do and therefore, shouldn't be looked upon too seriously. Then I came across this website the other day and found it to be quite accurate. The good thing is you don't have to answer any question but the bad thing is it's in chinese. Here it goes:


4月22日 計劃工程師

4月22日出生的人對于 具組織和建設本質的活動相當積極，其範圍不只是抽象的思想體系，還包括實際物質方面的建設。他們很擅長組織並經營家庭、餐廳、學校或任何社會團體，能使它 們正常地運作。矛盾的是，這些人並不特別愛交際，反而比較喜歡獨來獨往。他們大多是安安靜靜的，不太喜歡吸引別人的注意力。這天出生的人很懂得以輕松的方 式來完成艱苦任務的秘訣，而這種組織各種盛大集會的超強本領，遲早都會顯露出來的，就算沒能在職場上嶄露頭角，而只是運用在家庭聚會、開生日或結婚周年派 對這類的小場面中，只要是值得付出的，都能讓他們感到滿足和刺激。話說回來，4月22日出生的人如果不將才能發揮在商場上，那還真是浪費。有時候他們的組 織技巧很強，但有時會因為與上司的意見不合而感到心灰意冷，例如，他們可能會被指派去成立並經營一家別人名下的公司，卻在做得有聲有色之後，才發現老板太 過吹毛求疵或固執己見。諸如此類令人氣餒、沮喪的情形，常使他們寧可掛冠求去。從另一方面來說，4月22日出生的人和工作伙伴之間卻很少出問題。而在他們 摩下工作的人，也會很敬重這位上司的能力、實事求是的精神，以及豐富的人情味。不論體格壯碩與否，他們那威嚴的儀態常常是通往成功的重要因素。 4月22日出生的人最大的挑戰，在于控制自己的權力欲望。這些人當中發展得較好的，會表現得非常謙虛，既不逞能，也不驕傲；但發展得不夠好的人，則可能太 過專權，對人的態度也不夠寬容，而且常常令人難以更。這一天出生的人必須切記，應該公平、公正的運用他們發號施令的能力。雖然人世間可能會被財富和權貴人 士所眩惑，但不該全接受那些人的價值標準；而應該在研究、學習的技巧後，拒絕采用其中具破壞性的、不和諧的社會價值標準。 4月22日出生的人一旦建立了家庭、公司或組織後，每隔一段時間便會檢討它的發展是否達到自己所預期的理想。由于具有這樣的意識，他們可能會面臨一項大挑 戰，即是否要依照原訂的路線，繼續執行計劃；或是在某些重要的方面作修正；還是干脆放棄，改朝更有價值、更具意義的方向而努力。對這樣的人來說，他們通常 不知道何時該辭職，以及怎麼辭職，而且還可能因此引起精神上的痛苦和焦慮呢！此時他們必須要傾听自己內心的聲音。除此之外，為了避免被物質所奴投，這天出 生的人在精神層面上發展就顯得特別重要。

幸运数字和守护星 4月22日出生的人會受到數字4（2+2=4）以及天王星的影響。天王星代表的是古怪而且脾氣暴躁，因為這顆行星受到火星（牡羊座的主宰行星）和金星（金 牛座的主宰行星）的影響。4月22日出生的人在運用權力時，必須留意避免利用性或魅力，去達到控制別人的目的。受數字4支配的人，對人對事都有獨特的方法 和見解。由于他們常采取少數人的觀點，加上充滿自信，所以有時不免會招來敵意，樹立無數躲在暗處的敵人。此外22是雙數，因此4月22日出生的人經常會對 成雙成對的事物感興趣，例如雙胞胎、巧合的事情和對稱性等等。

健康 雖然在4月22日出生的人擁有一副說說、唱唱的好嗓子，但是他們卻可能會有頸部和喉嚨方面的健康問題。究竟是要一展這個好嗓音的天賦呢？還是要承受因其所 帶來的問題呢？這就得好好權衡一下了。對4月22日出生的人來說，性是非常重要的。他們可能對性十分著迷，也可能把它升華成各種不同的感官享樂形式，例 如，給人按摩或被人按摩，都能使這天出生的人產生一種特殊的快感。另外，當他們待在廚房時，都會感到非常快樂，因此應該盡可能讓自己悠游于品嘗和實驗美食 佳肴的天地中。適度的運動有助于對抗體重的增加，但是要避免運動過度。

建议

塔罗牌 大秘儀塔羅牌的第22張是“愚者”。圖案是一個人快活地站在懸崖邊。有的解釋是他十分愚蠢，缺乏理性判斷的能力；有的則指出他們極端崇尚精神層面，不在乎 現實。總的來說就是憑直覺行事、沒有描繪和抵抗的能力；同時，也代表了愚蠢、沖動和虛無。不過他們之中較成熟的，則會從生命的歷練中學取經驗，然後成為自 己理想中的人。

静思语 在黑暗中看事物，看不清楚，那麼就用心來感受吧。

优点 組織力強、實事求是、相貌威嚴。

缺点 不易相處、崇尚物質。

Last night's daydreaming...


Playing ball, wasting time,
Trying to get you out my mind.
But in my room I still find,
The scent of your perfume you left behind.

My mom once told me this,
“Good-flower-no-scare-bees-don’t-visit”.
But I never understand why they always leave
After they got their honey.

There has been time like this,
You said it’s because of the timing,
It’s not that you don’t love me,
It’s just a little more space that you need.

And so I wait for you to come around,
To finally realize I am forever your honey,
That there’s no where you can find another flower like me,
That you are just wasting your time and wasting me.

But now, I’m just playing ball,
Smelling the perfume you left behind.
If you were not meant for me,
Then I don’t know anything.

My first love letter 16th april 1979


I have been hiding my feelings inside.
To think that you are the one for me
Ever since I caught you in my eyes,
It’s not exactly what I anticipated in mind.

Lately my presence is getting on the nerves of everybody
Even my best friend doesn’t seem to get me.
I don’t know what is happening,
Only that your smile and your perfect hair aren’t really helping.

My world, I just want it to be just you and me.
My time, I just want it to freeze when you were with me.
My plan, I just want it to involve around you and me.
My dream, I just want it to be you and me.

Are you feeling what I am feeling?
Are you on the same page as me?
Am I the only one dreaming?
Am I supposed to be the one waiting?

Maybe an answer from you will end my misery.
But then will I still get to see u every morning?

It’s official

After 3 years of wondering which engineering I might be getting into in NTU, I finally got my answer on 25^th June 2007. I’m glad to announce that it’s my first choice: Mechanical Engineering. The best part is Akbar, Eugene, Junjie, Kenny…and all are going to study the same course too. At least now, I have got Akbar to go to school with everyday. I’m glad.

GST credit has already been deposited into my bank account. That will be an additional $300 to spend before I get my part time job. At the moment, $300 may seems to be quite a big sum of money to me, but still it’s not an excuse not to find a job for the month of July. In Singapore, you will NEED MORE THAN $300 to SURVIVE.

The weather has been really really hot these days. At first, I thought I can cut my hair only before school reopens (to save money), but I changed my mind when I realized I has been bathing at least 2 times everyday. So... here is it... my new haircut.

Before>>>>>>>>>>> After

It's show time...

It’s been over a week since I am done with my psychology paper. “How’s it?” Let’s not go there. Right now, I am almost free while hunting for a temp job before school starts in aug again. I seriously hate how money makes the rich lazy and the poor ones working. It’s not that working is a bad thing but seeing those wealthy ones going overseas for holiday or, at least, enjoying their time at the Great Singapore Sale really makes my eyes sore. DO I HAVE A CHOICE? This is the key issue. No money = No talk + No choice.

Maybe I am pushing myself too hard. I meant what was I thinking when I decided to take a special term one week right after my exam was over, and now, can’t wait to work after my special term is over. Maybe I should just like my hair down a little before they are all gone due to stress and tiredness. At least until I got my temp job.

While waiting for grey’s anatomy to start its 4^th season, I am watching Brothers & Sisters starring the one and only Calista Flockhart. To be honest, She is the reason why I watch the series at first but now, I am hooked to all the characters and relationships of the Walker’s family. Every episode is like a party. I am hoping for the 2^nd season to be aired soon. If not, I will be spending more hours on drama shows rather than lect notes when school reopens.

Speaking of school, I got kicked out of my hall. Haiz... I got all my stuff back at home and after the special term, i must say, I am still not used to the traveling. As a result, all I can do now is to plan my time table really really well in order to save time and travel cost. But according to what they said, yr2 's schedule will be tigher than yr1's. We shall see how then.

You are all that matters

It’s the crave of sleeping with you every wake-up in the mornings.
It’s the noise of my alarm clock that disturbed your sleep.
It’s the getaway you planned so hard but I failed to meet.
It’s the number of “I love you” in exchange with my “I’m sorry”.

It’s the smell of your breathe in the mid of a cold breeze.
It’s the taste of your tongue like nobody’s.
It’s the words you said that made me believe in fairy tales again.
It’s the moment when I look at you and you don’t look away.

It’s the everyday life you turn into Halloween.
It’s how right you were about me that I hate to admit.
It’s how you pretend to like my taste in music.
It’s the number of calls from you in London when I was sick.

And of course, it’s the expensive gifts you showered on me
and telling me how my smile is all you need.

These days…

Finally, I am done with psychology quiz 1 and 2. Just one week after my exam, psychology module kicked in and it’s 10 chapters to study within 5 weeks. Like Biology, it’s an interesting subject, with lots of nice videos to see. But it’s a lot of information to digest with very little time. Seriously, you can’t cover a chapter within the 2 hours lecture. So no choice, weekend have to be spent studying the textbook. Quiz 1- 14/16, Quiz 2- 15/16…not bad right?

Moved out of my hall, which means back to staying at home. I still find it a chore to travel from home to school, especially for just 2 hrs lessons, 3 times a week. Maybe this is the reason why I choose to stay in hall in the first place. I just hope that they will accept my hostel application for my yr2.

Being at home means more tv time. I have been losing touch of the news and the outside world during my stay in hall. Sadly, all the news I heard is not good news. There are so many cases in which people die just like that. Incidents like the 2 NSFs in Taiwan training, the women killed by fallen tree during her morning walk…etc. It really makes me realize how sudden your life can be taken away…like the chickens and ducks in the farms. The only difference is you have your love ones crying for you after you were gone and it’s like that will make things better?!?

Finally, i watched "Hard Candy". It's the movie I wanted to watch since sem1 but I remembered only a few cinemas has it and Eugene chose to watch "The Lake House" over it. By the way, “Hard Candy” is not a porno film. I told so many of my friends and porn is the first thing that came to their heads. Anyway, “Hard Candy” is definitely more realistic and intense than “The Lake house”. It’s about a 32 yo guy meeting up a 14 yo teenage girl whom he chatted over the Internet and realized he is not on top of his game. Still, it’s not porn.

Finally, exam over, yr1 over. Yeah, 3 months long break. I wanna thank akbar and xin xin and sandy and students from my malay class. Without you all, I will not be able to even finished my malay exam paper. So TERIMA KASIH! OH…and happy belated birthday to me…haha…BIG 22 on the 22^nd of April. It’s a big thing!!! Spent it with Eugene, studying material science!?! So glad that my room mate is Eugene. I wanna eat pizza and he agreed. It's really the small little things that count. And thanks for the Avril lavigne CD, The Best Damn Thing. I am happy. And thanks chin bee for spiderman 3 even though she is the one who wanna watch it. I am happy.
22 liao…I still remembered my 21^st birthday wish is to enjoy my uni life and make some good friends, and I did. I just wish my result will be good this time round. Haha… but no matter what my results will be, I tried my best…not studying, but doing the exam papers. Trust me, there is a difference. Meanwhile, I wanna dedicate this song to all the teachers who set the exam papers…Thanks…

I Like Studying on 20042007

I like studying.
The fact that it makes me think,
Think of the weirdest reason,
Just to get out of it.

Suddenly the room needs to be cleaned.
Suddenly my stomach is always empty.
Suddenly I agreed it’s good to sleep early.
Suddenly I can’t seem to breathe.

Maybe it’s due to the weather.
Maybe the bed is a better table.
Maybe I should use pen instead of pencil.
Maybe studying is not my kind of thing after all these years.

Unless the notes have all the answers.
Unless I can beat all those china students.
Unless Avril lavigne would be my teacher.
Unless I can concentrate a little better.

But I like studying,
Just that it makes me think,
Think of the weirdest reason,
To get out of it.

HEADACHE



Since when has it become a monthly post? Haha...guessed that it looks like it for now. Sem 2 is really going very fast, and before i realised it, exam is in less than 20 days. Ya... I know. Here it goes again. It's time to start digging for coins in the spare pockets of my jeans and throw them into the wishing well(if you get wat i meant). I really don't have confidence in any of the paper this time round.
No time, no time, no time... I wrote stuff, will find time to post them after the exam before i lost the bits and pieces of my writing paper. Anyway, this post is not only about whining, but to share a piece of good news. SUN YANZI 10TH Ablum is finally finally out. I quite like it, even though i was hoping for more surprises, most of the songs are her normal bittersweet love songs...which are also good by the way. Maybe I will like it more, and I always will, when I listen to them more, but now, it's back to lecture notes and tutorials.

My own hero


We talked, we nodded,
Showing our signature smiles.
I thought, some sort,
It’s gonna last for awhile.

But no, you go,
Leaving me here alone.
It’s cold and I know,
Only I can be my own hero.

And i say,
Time will grow into years.
Time will tell what you have learnt.
Time will evaporate your tears.
Time will mend what you have burnt.

Soon enough the pain will fade away.
For now, it still feels like yesterday,
The look on your face and the things u said,
The memories still swimming in my head.


PS, Happy Valentine's Day

I’m shedding my skin

Pls don’t think U know me

I'm not who I used to be

Don’t make me into your own belief

It’s a new beginning

Just wait N see

Bittersweet Memories

If you were to ask me what kind of student I used to be,
Honestly speaking, I couldn’t give you an exact answer.
Lessons were always boring from what I could remember,
With me hiding at the far end of the corner.

Ya…I was that kid in high school.
And what kept me going was the trip to school.
I would wake up early to stand in front of the queue,
Not boarding the train until I saw you.

I never knew your name,
We weren’t from the same school.
Your uniform always looked so new,
I felt so good standing next to you.

If only you knew how I feel,
If only I were within your scope of view,
If only you would take some time away from your book,
If only I had the courage to say “I like you”.

True enough, I didn’t get to see you after the summer break.
I even went to wait at your school’s main gate.
It’s either you have moved or graduated,
But it sure left me with one hell of a heartache.

Thanks and no thanks…

Thanks for telling me you visit my blog diligently, no thanks for asking me to update my blog diligently… and thanks for telling me everything is gonna be better once I get used to the situations. I guess I am getting used to being a schoolboy again. Getting used to getting over with getting lousy grades. Now, it’s going to be just mugging for the nightmare that is going to haunt me in less than a month time. Meaning to say, I will be coming in here less often. Anyhow, hope to bring you guys good news during my next update. Wish me luck and all the concentration I need. I will miss you all and this is true.

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Tell me...

It’s not about getting the As and Bs,
It’s not about meeting the deadlines,
It’s not about being punctual for lectures,
It’s not about finding answers to your tutorials,
It’s not about getting ahead of the class,
It’s not about chasing time,
It’s not about being right.
Tell me…

A guy like me can only hold up for so long. It’s intense, very very intense hanging in there and I am done. I just want to sit down and waste time. I just want to have more fun. Yeah, I’m unhappy and complaining and you are right, I’m living in Singapore, the tell-me-when-to-smile city. Kill me now…pls…I promise I will die smiling.

Finally....



One week break from school, not school work...but school. Although there's some catching up of work to do, tv time will still be, of course, tv time.

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This is Me so far….


Sitting in a LT,
That’s how my day usually begins.
With a pencil and a highlighter,
Painting the notes on the table.

Trying hard listening to the lecturer,
As the surrounding’s murmurs getting louder.
An hour passed and I have no idea,
When the lecturer asked if we got the whole picture.

Attending tutorials after lunch is the worst.
Your eyes start to close even if your tutor is a pretty girl.
“Vectors, Optics, Limits, Acid…etc” so many chapters,
Takes only one month to cover.

Soon it’s two weeks to exam.
Chinese saying, I’m like an ant
Under a wok of fire.
Now then I realized,
Uni life is, after all, not that enjoyable.